Monochrome

Been a half month I'm not blogging anyway. A lot of things happened in that time. Just a quick story, 3 days ago is my super saddest birthday ever. I have no surprise from anyone, no present, and no boyF since i was broke up exact in the evening on 31st march( the time when I supposed to be have a dinner ) :_( poor me, isn't? But don't worry, we're getting back together now :p And hey, I'm turning into 23rd years old now. Yes, supposed to be  more mature and wiser ( hopefully ) cause of dramas of my life is just started. Fufufufu!

Well actually I still not in the right mood to tell all of them. So please forgive my laziness ya *big grind* 

And this post really represented my mood today..

Monochrome. Sometimes your life seems to be like monochrome. Just one color, grey ( with or without black and white ). It looks soooo pale, like you're not alive nor die. Feeling alone in this crowded world. You need to paint your souls. Yes you have to coloring your soul, with your favorite colors. But hey, grey also one of them ( read : color ), huh? 

Below, I'll bombarded you with my self photo, with what people called boring color : Monochrome.

Enjoy ^^

P.S : I coloring my hair into mocha ( treating my self before my birthday ), but i'll show you guys the real color soon ;)

xoxo,
@chieliciouz

 

Thanks God Its March

Time flies so fast, isn't? I still though just last month i wrote love-sad-story with my EX, posting a lot of things about him, but now, I had a new partner of life :') 

All times I've been passed, means a lot for me. God trying to teach me every single day i lived. 

There's so much blessing I got from HIM. All the bitter sweet comes along that time, and bring me to my-grateful-list-which-I-have-to-share-to-you  :

*Thanks God, I still alive till today, its the GREATEST GRACE from my only one Jesus.

*Thanks God, I didn't waste so many times to crying for my EX. 

*Thanks God, You give me the new ( and hope my last ) partner of life named Simon Angga.

*Thanks God, my family knows about my relationship. And I wish my family could accept him and his family too.

*Thanks God, I've been passed 1 month 5 days with my lovely Simon Angga. I also wish GOD will bless our relationship, I just want GOD controlling our relationship, because HE knows what best for us. My pray till today, I could be forever with him. Yeah, i have a lot of wish regarding my relationship ( maybe will share for the next post ). 

*Thanks God, now I live alone ( not with my parents or even my sister/brother ). Well sometimes with my friend office ( Rahma ). All things I have to managed by myself, from washes clothes *Aaa i miss my mommy! since I always complaining everyday while she washing all my clothes :( I have to buy meals since I still not have a stove or any cooking tools x( I even not have Tv guys! How poor I am >.<
But again, it brought me to the decision that my family choose. All those circumstance make me to have a super big big heart. My life even yours never getting easier, trust me! It will getting harder and harder, but sure, it can be BETTER and BETTER if you could pass it. The question is, how come I ( in my case ) pass it all? My answers : KEEP ON GOING in GOD PATH, STOP COMPLAINING and START BE GRATEFUL in EVERY SITUATION AND CONDITION.

Yes, nothing we could do except be grateful in every condition. I know, it wont change the conditions, but it really works to change your mindset, your mood, your heart, yes, it would make you happier, it would make everything LOOKS easier. It helps anyway. 

And last but not least, 

*Thanks God, its MARCH already! Yeay, the month of my birthday. My month!!! 

I will getting older, and (wish) wiser, and (wish) stronger, and (wish) smarter. 

Do I have so much wishes for this month? OF COURSE! So March, please be the nicest month for me :)

xoxo,

Chieliciouz

I have a (lot of) dreams

Ps : I write my dreams on the clouds background. There's a meaning why I do that. Because yes, you have to hang up your dream  into the highest sky. Then you have to take more effort to reach them. If you're fall, wake up and walk with extra mile so you could get your dreams in the mean time. 

And oh, that's the real picture which I take while i'm on the beach last Saturday. I just change the tone a little bit :) 

Criticism = Compliments

If some people give you a criticism it means there's something wrong with you.
But, if only one people give you criticism many times, it means she/he might be jealous on you because you're stunning! - Nw

Nothing to be explain

Yes, sometimes if you're in trouble, you just have to be quiet. Because there's nothing to be explain. All you have to do is solving that problems. If you do the mistake, admit it and do apologize and promise to not repeat it again. Not by your "blablablah" to everybody you know, or give so many reason, only for do protection to yourself. And it become bullshit nothing for me. 

It happened to me in a couple days ago. Not me as the trouble one, but I had a problem with someone out there, and i feel like hey-i-don't-want-to-hear-any-reason-from-you-please .. He's not quite good to defending his selves, and apologize sounds nothing for this case. Therefore, it makes me learn more. That there's a time you have to defend  your self and there's a time that you have to admit your mistake or there's a time you could only be quiet because there's nothing to be explain because the universe will protect you, instead.
Well that's my opinion, not for depending my self indeed :)

xoxo

Don't you remember?

Being so in love with the song's from Adele - Don't you remember .. 

Yeah, this song was really remind me with someone out there *which is love Adele too* 

He always sang "someone like you" after he broke up with his gf. And guest what, he's not only gets someone like you *his ex* but he COME BACK with his ex! *Please, let me laugh so loud, HAHAHAHA!*Evil's laugh*

But even i love that songs too, i never agree with what Adele says : "Never mind, i'll find someone like you.." Ugh, it was so galau, you know? How come you could move on if you still finding someone like your ex? I'm a real dreamer. And I'm still the major of "miracle believer" , therefore until now, i still believe that : if you broke up with your BF/GF it means there's nothing to be struggle with. So GOD give you both a space, because HE will give the other one for both of you. Of course the best and even the greatest one. Why we give us tiring way to find someone like your ex-which-is-not-so-worth-for-you? 

But, in this song, Adele still in mellow mood i thought. And the lyric of this song was so ME. 

Yes, this is what i feel today..

When will I see you again?

You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,

No final kiss to seal any seams,

I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?

Or have you completely erased me from your memory?

I often think about where I went wrong,

The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,

I kept my distance so you would be free,

And hope that you find the missing piece,

To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

Aaah, yeah, to be honest, in my fickle heart ( galau ) and bitterness ( kebencian ) to him, I still have a feeling of missing him. Everything we'd passed, six month is not a short time. There was still on my mind, completely. But my question is, DON'T YOU REMEMBER??? I won't to ask him the reason he loved me before. I just want to ask him, DID he ever loved me before? then where does it goes? 

But still, I'm standing now, try to walk away.. Not to forget it, but i will always remember him in my deepest heart, bring it all on my way.. 

Misty

"I am not BLACK. Neither WHITE. I'm just MISTY"

Misty, if you see in the dictionary means "berkabut"..  Yes, just like grey.
Maybe you think our clothes, with playful color, the basic is white then the factory will coloring with other color, then voila.. it become pink, green, tosca, purple or etc.
You're wrong. My sister ever told me, the element or the base of fabric is not white, but MISTY.
Nowdays, I feel so numb. Because I have so many problems. I'm compromise with my heart, I got minus for my finance, I got hectic job in my office. Aaa, i'm going to die now.

And in this condition, i have no one beside me. Yeah, I know, I still have family. But, I never share what I felt with them. I'd prefer to share with my friends. But, hell-o, where are them??? I even didn't see them in about (my)- 2 -(difficult) weeks. I feel soooo lonely in this crowded world :'(

could it be worst?! Not to mention I'm in complaining, but as a human, I really feel so tired.

God, please.. 

my life is (not) drama korea

Hmm.. hari ini ngga tau kenapa yah, pengen banget ngeblog, tapi ga tau apa yang kudu di postingin.. Padahal udah guling2 dibawah pancuran air, udah lari2 di hutan, sampe belok ke pantai terus muter2 ke pasar ikan juga -____________-"

kaya abege labil gitu deh gw seharian, mikirin apa yang harus gw posting..

Sebenernya gw mo posting tentang si Dee.. Tapi di next post aja deh.. Bahannya masih kurang, bahahaha *berasa mo bkin skripsi -___-"

Belakangan ini gw pulang jam setengah 6 sampe jam 6an udah nyampe rumah, dan sesampainya gw dirumah, gw langsung pantengin tv.. Tidak lain dan tidak bukan, gw nonton film drama korea..

Yang sekarang lagi tayang itu Queen of Reversals .. Ahh gw suka banget karakter direktur Goo yoong shik nya.. *buat yang ngga ngerti, tolong di tonton dulu filmnya tiap hari senin-minggu jam 16.00 WIB :D atau at least, dibaca sinopsisnya yaa :)

Singkatnya, Ada seorang cewe yang udah menikah sama cowo yang dicintai, dan udah punya anak, akhirnya merasa pernikahannya ngga bahagia karena ternyata suaminya ngga bener2 cinta sama istrinya.. Sampe akhirnya mereka cerai, dan si cewe deket sama direktur dimana dia kerja.

Si direktur dengan sifat2 rebelnya, ternyata suka sama si cewe.. Dan, gw ngga tau lagi soalnya filmnya belom abis :D 

Yang ngeselin si mantan suaminya itu *yang episode tadi gw tonton* baru sadar kalo si cewe ternyata berarti dalam hidupnya.. 

yees, give me S, give me U, give me K, give me U, give me R, give me I, give me N = SUKURIN.

that's what they called : penyesalan selalu datang terlambat. Padahal si cewe udah mati2an mempertahanin pernikahan mereka, tapi si cowo malah ngegodain mantan pacarnya yang merupakan musuh bebuyutan si cewe -_____-" *mendadak emosi deh gw.. hahahaha..

Terus dateng si bosnya (direkturnya) yang beneran suka sama si cewe, berkorban banyak hal buat si cewe sampe mengorbankan kedudukan pewaris perusahaan demi si cewe.. *so sweet banget ngga siiih???

Mudah2an endingnya jadi sama si direktur aja deh.. 

Tapi2, kalo boleh gw sok tau ya, hampir semua drama korea yang udah gw tonton nih, benang merahnya itu sama.. Bercerita tentang 1 cewe, di rebutin 2 cowo sekaligus *aw, mau doongs :p  dimana cowo pertama itu lebih tulus, dan cowo kedua lebih cuek tapi justru cowo kedua yang malahan dipilih sama si cowo.. Hey-ho! Ada apa sih sama para penulis skenario???

Kenapa sih karakter cowo cuek, galak bahkan kadang terkesan kejam ternyata jadi pemeran utama?

Kenapa si cewe harus direbutin sama 2 cowo sekaligus??? 

Kenapa bukan gw yang jadi pemeran cewenya???*Oke ini pertanyaan bodoh.

Kenapa cowo yang selalu meluluhkan hati2 para penonton wanita malah harus selalu mengalah, dan berakhir menyedihkan??? Kenapa penulis skenarionya ngga nambahin pemeran tambahan buat nemenin itu cowo???*kaya film2 indonesia yang punya banyak season kayak season ramadhan, season natalan, low season sampe high season??? Apa disana kekurangan pemain??? Kenapa juga si sutradara nggak ngontact gw??? kalopun gak dibayar, sure, gw rela..

*Abaikan #trims

Tapi to be honest, gw bener2 heran seheran2nya gw bisa.. Kenapa begitu ya? #TanyaKenapa.

Iya bener, drama korea intinya emang cuma begitu, tapi dengan jalan cerita atau latar belakang yang berbeda tapi yang paling mengenakan adalah selalu berakhir happy ending tanpa harus nunggu season lebaran #eeaa.

Makanya gw iri, karena itu bener2 cuma ada di drama korea aja tuh.. Kenyataannya, cerita cinta gw ngga kaya gitu.. Gw ngga direbutin sama 2 cowo, boro2 dua, satu aja kaga *pasang muka melas* #eeaa #curcol.

Terus, bagian yang paling penting ngga ada cowo yang-segitu-ikhlasnya-sampe2-rela-menderita-asalkan-si-cewe-yang-dicinta-itu-bahagia..

Sure, gw belom pernah ketemu cowo macem gini di Indo.. Kira2 kalo gw ngimport dari korea ongkirnya  mahal kagak yah? terus nyampe berapa hari ya? bisa COD ngga? *et, dikira jam tangan monol kali -____-"

Kebanyakan cowo yang gw kenal itu berbanding terbalik sama cowo diatas.. Tanpa harus menyebutkan spesifik sifatnya yaaa *Brb, ambil panci buat tameng *takut ditimpukin kaum adam :D
Padahal gw selalu kagum sama sosok cowo kaya gitu..
Tapi yeah, seperti judul postingan gw, hidup gw bukanlah drama korea..
Even gw berhak untuk menetukan jalan hidup gw, pada akhirnya, Tuhan yang menentukan akhir yang membahagiakan buat gw, YES??? *Well quote terakhir ini bener2 mujizat, ngga tau dapet dari mana, itu kok tercipta kata2 itu yaaa??? gw aja kaget sendiri, bahahaha..

Baiklah, kita akhiri sampai disini postingan "sok tau" gw.. karena kalo kepanjangan, nanti bisa2 gw harus buat season2 lainnya.. Atau lebih parahnya, bisa2 gw dikontrak jadi penulis skenario selanjutnya lagi -_____-" *ngimpi.com
Nulis postingan seginian doang menghabiskan waktu berjam2 kalo gw posting dari rumah, karena keyboard laptop gw pada kopong ( some caracters are missing ) gara2 si gibsoooon -____-"

Tipe Temen yang Paling Nyebelin!

Kata orang, temen itu harta paling berharga, temen itu susah dicari, temen itu orang yang paling bisa diajak berbagi, temen itu tempat kita mencurahkan segala sesuatu yang kita rasain, temen itu yang selalu ada saat kita butuhkan, temen itu, bla bla bla..
Yeah, gw juga yakin dan percaya sama hal itu.. Karena, to be honest, gw adalah tipe introvert yang juga sekaligus paling tidak bisa hidup individualis.. Gw selalu pengen ada temen yang nemenin gw di keadaan apapun.. Dan gw pun selalu berusaha begitu.. Simbiosis mutualisme lah :)
Tapi, tapi.. Temen juga manusia, Guysss!
Yang juga ada kelemahannya.. malah ada kan, ungkapan temen makan temen *kanibal kali dia ye?! ,
musuh berkedok temen *emang ada?! , temen tapi mesra #eeaa
Yang pasti adalah sifat2 temen yang kadang kita nggak suka.. Disini gw jabarin sifat temen yang nyebelin *Berdasarkan pengalaman pribadi *curcol #eeaa
ini dia :

1. PLAGIAT
arrrrghhhh, gw paling sebel deeeh, sama temen yang doyan bener ngikutin gaya gueh.. #BerasaArtis
Tapi seriusan, heloooo, gw kan bukan syahrini-artis-yang-menyebalkan-tapi-malah-jadi-trendsetter yang baju kaftan, kalung skullrock dan 'alhamdulilah yah, sesuatu..' nya jadi trending topic masa kini..
Tapi percaya ngga percaya yah, temen-temen terdekat gw malah, yang seneng banget ngikutin gaya gw..
Waktu SMA, ternyata sahabat gw dengan sengaja ngikutin potongan rambut gw yang bondol ( rambut pendek abisss ), dan itu terjadi lebih dari sekali.. Waktu SMP juga gitu, tapi 'mereka' tidak mengakuinya.
Terus lama kelamaan, cara berpakaian.. Awalnya 'mereka' bilang "Ih, cantik deh lo, pake baju ini.."
Besoknya, 'mereka' bilang "Gw pengen punya baju kaya yang lo pake itu deh.." #Gubrak

2. SELFISH
Selfish disini, lebih ke sense of 'I always win, and you were loose' ( tidak mau mengalah ) -___-"
Ho'oh, banyak banget temen gw yang ngga mau ngalah..Astaga, umur udah kepala 2 nih, tapi kelakuan masih kaya anak TK deh..Contohnya ( dalam bentuk dialog ) :
Gw : "Eh gw abis ini lho.." *Niatnya ngasih informasi*
Temen : "Gw juga, bla-bla-bla ..." *Malah panjangan dia cerita -_______-"
Heloooo *sambil cengkling2in jari ala fitrop*
Gw kan cuman ngasi inpo dan ngga perlu ditambah2in gitu ngapa?! keliatan banget pan klo lo kaga mo ngalah (–˛—º) pelish deh (–˛—º)
Kalo lagi curhat juga suka gitu..Niatnya mau curhat, kok dia balesnya "Gw juga gitu.. gw sama si ini begini, sama si itu begitu.."
Aduh mbak, kapan saya curhatnya??? #MendadakSedih (╥﹏╥)

3. KEPO-KEPO
Hadeeeuh.. Even teman selalu berbagi, tapi sebagai manusia, secara individu ya punya privasi juga kali yaah..
Ada saat2nya kite juga butuh privasi..Seperti rumah, pasti ada pagernya, biar aman dan nggak kecolongan..Temen juga gitu, ada pager supaya ngga "kecolongan" dari temen sendiri..
Jadi kalo gw udah bilang "Gw lagi ada masalah dan sedang berusaha menyelesaikan sendiri.."
Ngga perlu deh lo jawab "Kenapa siiih? cerita dong.." Itu namanya KEPO!
Ada saatnya kok buat kita cerita, ada saatnya juga kita diam :)

4. TEMEN MUSIMAN
Et dah, kaya duren aje ye ada musim2nya segala -___-"
Tapi ada lho beberapa temen gw yang kaya gini modelnya.. Contohnya kalo lagi butuh, baru dah pada absen di depan muka gw.. Coba kalo pas gw nya yang butuh gitu, pasti 'mereka' ngga ada..
Kalo ada maunya, pada manis2 kucing, giliran mereka seneng, gw kagak diajak..
Pokoknya gw bagian pait2nya doang daaaah *sedih ye?

5. PENGADUAN
Nah ini niiih, jaman google gini, masiiiih ada aja yak temen yang suka ngadu..
Misalnya gw cerita apa gitu, eeh, di ceritain lagi sama temennya yang lain, sama keluarganya segala..
Pernah tuh gw punya temen kaya gitu.. syukurnya sekarang udah ngga deket lagi..
Bukannya gimana, masa gw yang pacaran, dia yang cerita sama nyokapnya, detail lagi!
hadeeeeeeuh, mau ditaro dimane muke aye? ╮(╯_╰")╭

Jadi itulaaaaah, sifat2 yang gw benci dari temen2 gw.. Tapi bagaimanapun, mereka tetep yang terbaik yang pernah gw miliki..
Yah namanya manusia yah, pasti ada kekurangannya.. Dan gw pasti juga banyak kekurangannya..
Tapi setidaknya, gw berusaha untuk tidak melakukan hal yang tidak gw suka..
Ga mungkin kan gw ga suka sama orang yang plagiat, tapi gw sendiri sukanya ngikutin orang..
It's a big no no buat gw :)
Yah, untungnya temen2 gw bisa saling melengkapi.. Kekurangan gw mereka tutupin dengan kelebihan mereka.. Dan kekurangan mereka gw tutupin dengan kelebihan gw..
That's what friends are for :)

And no matter they are, they still the one that i love in my life..

A doctor heals a who?

Even a doctor could heal EVERYONE, but a doctor could not heal themself..

Antara Bali dan Jakarta

Hmm, oke di postingan kali ini, gw bakalan bercerita suka duka jadi anak kontraktor *Hah, Bapak lo kontraktor ya chie? kok baru tau?!  No, no, i mean orang yang sering berpindah2 tempat tinggal.
Atau bahasa pengetahuan sosialnya NOMADEN *tsaaaah, bahasa lo chie!
Dari gw belom lahir, kata nyak ama babe gw, kita sering banget pindah rumah..
Karena emang dulu kan belom punya rumah.. sampe akhirnya gw lahir, kebeli lah rumah di Pondok Pucung Indah ( Jakarta pinggiran, lebih pantes disebut TANGERANG ).
Yeah, entah gw harus bangga atau malah malu punya predikat ini.. But, let's see from positive view..
Positifnya, gw jadi punya temen2 baru, bisa mengenal lingkungan baru, bisa cari tempat ngutang baru #eh , dan bisa punya gbtn baru #EhLagi. Tapi banyak juga lho negatifnya.. ( kite bahas yang positip2 aje ye, penonton.. biar makin banyak anak #NahLho?! )
Dari rumah itu gw menghabiskan masa kanak2 gw.. Sampe akhirnya, antara tahun 2002-2003, gw pindah lagi.. Lantaran ntu rumah dijual ama babe aye, karena financial matter !@#$%^&*
Sumpah yah, itu rumah kenangan banget..cukup besar buat kita tinggal ber 4.. Bayangin, kamarnya ada 3 dibawah, 1 diatas ( 2 lantai ) masing2 segede2 gaban *walaupun sampe sekarang gw ngga tau gaban itu seberapa* Yang paling gw suka dari rumah itu, ada pintu kaca yang menghubungkan lantai 1 ke tangga *duuh, gimana jelasinnya ya Peeps? #RibetSendiri. Intinya itu pintu kaca gede bener, dan didepannya ruang kosong, biasanya tempat kita nonton tv..Jadi disitu ya, jaman gw ESDE yang demen jejingkrakan sama temen2 semasa itu, menggunakan ruangan itu buat kita latihan dance #Joged2Sendiri..Ah, pkoknya quite good lah buat gw..Terus dari situ, gw sempet tinggal dirumah petak *lebih cocok disebut kost2an* yang emang bener2 sepetak, Peeps..cuma cukup diisi kasur lantai king bed, sama buffet tv..trus dapur sebelahnya kamar mandi, ah, bener2 sepetak lah..kalo gw ngga salah, hampir 2 bulan gw "hidup sengsara" kaya gitu.. Dan itu bener2 di kampung lho, Peeps..Itu waktu gw SMP kelas 1, ah, tahun 2002 berarti..Gw yang pada saat itu ikut jemputan, sampe harus naek sepeda dulu ke rumah temen gw yang juga 1 jemputan, karena mobil ngga bisa masuk ke daerah rumah gw #NangisBombay.
Terus dari situ, kita beli lagi rumah di Villa Bintaro ( Kompleks BTN nya ) sama, masih di daerah Tangerang..
I do love those home.. Soo homie.. even not bigger than before. Tapi lingkungannya asik banget.. *baru pindah disana, gw udah punya secret admirer lhooo, bhuakakkakakak* #Eh #JadiIngetSiDoi
Tapi, sayangnya cuma 2 tahun gw tinggal disana.. Karena lagi2, nyak-babe gw memutuskan untuk hijrah ke Bali.. Yeaaah, ini gara2 2 kakak gw yang entah-ngga-ada-kerjaan-atau-gimana pindah ke Bali.. give them SH*T! Iya, walaupun nama gw Bali, tapi bokap gw sendiri ngga pernah tinggal di Bali, karena kampungnya sendiri di Lombok.. *kan makin bingung kan, sama silsilah keluarga gw?! Dan gw sendiri, jarang2 ke Bali.. Cuma tau di Bali banyak beach dan b*tch..Jadi, to be honest, gw satu2nya orang yang menentang kepindahan ke Bali..
Iyalah, gw itu tipe orang introvert, ngga gampang buat sosialisasi dan dan cenderung males bersosialisasi..
Gw udah terlalu bahagia tinggal di Jakarta yang serba ada, macet dimana2, banjir dimana2, tapi si introvert ini malah bisa mandiri.. Sedangkan kalo gw ke Bali, *pada waktu itu kakak gw yang cerita* dimana gw harus bisa bawa motor, karena, Hey, ngga ada angkot di Bali, cyiin..Ngga ada mall2 yang berjejer, ngga ada metro mini, kereta api, dan semua2 yang bisa gw nikmatin di Jakarta..Dan yang paling penting, gw bakalan kehilangan temen2 sejati gw..Yeaaah, it is not easy to find a good "soulmates" for an introvert people unless me!
Dannn, sampai pada akhirnya, bokap-nyokap gw pindah duluan ke Bali, Desember 2004.
Karena gw pada saat itu di kelas 3 semester 2, tanggung banget buat pindah, akhirnya gw diungsikan ke rumah sodara gw yang ngga terlalu jauh dari rumah gw yang terakhir dijual..
Masih inget banget, gw akhirnya ( mau atau ngga mau ) pindah ke Bali, Juni 2005. Setelah lulus, gw ngga punya waktu buat perpisahan, gw udah harus bener2 berpisah dari sahabat2 gw..
Sampai detik ini, which is 6 years already. Gw masih belum menemukan temen2 terbaik seperti yang gw punya di Jakarta..
Sumpah demi apapun yang hidup didunia, ada banyak banget perbedaan antara Jakarta dan Bali..Entah ini cuma perasaan gw atau emang itu kenyataannya. Gw bakalan "mengulas" perbedaan2nya, selain yang udah gw sebut diatas..

Bali, a trueeee village. Yes it is! Even lo berdiri di pusat keramaian dipenuhi turis2 mancanegara bahkan mancaplanet sekalipun, Bali tetap sebuah pulau yang dipenuhi masyarakat yang masih kental adat-istiadatnya.
Kalo bahasa anak Jakarta sih "Desa bangettt" .. Selain adat istiadat yang masih mendarah daging, bahkan menulang #NahLho?! pemikiran kebanyakan orang di Bali pun masih "inside the box" .
Masih agak sulit buat menerima hal baru, cenderung kaku.. Bahasa kerennya not so into open minded.
Ya itu tadi, mungkin karena masih berpegang teguh pada adat istiadat yang turun temurun dari para leluhurnya..Ada bagusnya juga sih..Kultural di Bali kan emang paling terkenal, menjual banget buat orang2 asing..Jadi Bali tetep jadi kebanggaan Indonesia :)

Dan berpengaruh juga ke hubungan sosialnya.. Yappp, to be honest, gw agak susah buat bergaul apalagi deket sama orang asli Bali..Kebetulan pas gw sekolah SMA, gw masuk di SMK Pariwisata, dan jurusan gw pun jurusan yang grade nya paling tinggi ( they think it is ) jadi sebagian besar temen2 gw adalah orang2 dari luar Bali. Bisa diitung yah, orang Bali yang deket sama gw.. sumpah, cukup kok satu tangan aja --"
Entah mengapa, gw bener2 ngga bisa akrab sama orang2 yang asli Bali.. Sorry to say, tapi emang kenyataan.
Dan gw tidak sedang menjelek2an orang Bali, karena gimanapun darah Bali masih ada di tubuh gw, ini haya sekedar share. Memang beda persahabatan di Bali dan di Jakarta.. di Jakarta lebih solid, super friendly atau bahasa indonesianya setia kawan.. Sedangkan di Bali ngga..Ya, tetep berteman, tapi tetep ada GAPnya..

Bahasa juga, gw yang udah terbiasa ber-ELO, GUEH, END (ˇ_ˇ'!l) .. Tiba2 terdampar di Bali dengan bahasa aku-kamu, sama siapapun. Ahh, kalo sama lawan jenis, jadi kaya pacaran deeeh --"
Atau bahasa anak gawl Balinya, Ke ( kamu ) dan cang ( aku ) *ini agak kasar, Peeps..
Jangan tanya bahasa yang lg trend di kalangan anak Jakarta..Coba aja tanya sama orang Bali, artinya ababil, kepo, kipak, mager etc ( gw jamin mereka ngga ada yang tau.. gw aja nanya om gugel, hahaha! )

Trend, whooaaa, lagi2 yah, even tante Julia Roberts pernah mandi di pantai Padang2, terus Hayley Paramore pernah konser di GWK bahkan seorang penjual kalung di tanah lot bisa 5 bahasa ( korea, jepang, mandarin, rusia, inggris ) tapi masalah trend, Bali bener2 ketinggalan jaman, guys!
Apa yang udah "basi" di Jakarta, baru trending di Bali.. Jangan heran kalo gw ngeliat temen2 gw yang di Jakarta, berasa ngeliat artis.. Malah, yang paling parah, gw sering diketawain sama temen2 gw, kalo gw ke Jakarta..Gw dipanggil Achie si gadies desa, astagaaaah! #TutupMukaPakeDempulanSyahrini.

Banyak temen2 gw di Jakarta yang ngga percaya sama apa yang gw bilang, mereka bilang "Masa sih, Chie?
Bali segitu cupu-nya? Padahal banyak bule lhooo?"
Jawaban gw cuma "Ya terus? Emang bule bawa trend galau ke Bali?" #IniMahNggaNyambung.
Tapi serius deh ya, even bahasa nomer 2 di Bali itu Bahasa Inggris, tidak serta merta membawa Bali ke trend internasional #Asek.. Yang paling bikin gw "mengurut dada" yah, dari semua yang gw bahas diatas, Bali punya 1 keunggulan.. Mau tau apa?
10 dari temen gw yang tinggal di Bali, ke 7nya udah punya anak/istri/suami/ bahkan selingkuh2an..
Sedangkan temen2 gw yang di Jakarta ( yang seumuran ) paling cuma 4 dari 10 yang udah berkeluarga..
Bayangin guys! Jadi yang diambil dari gaya barat itu sisi jeleknya.. fyuuuh!

So guys, ini cuma review dari gw aja.. Berdasarkan pengalaman pribadi.. Setuju ngga setuju, mari kita maju #eeaa.. Maksudnya, setuju ngga setuju, ini cuma pengalaman gw aja..Jadi ngga usah pada protes apalagi demo..Kasian nasib om Nazarudin #NahLho.
Baiklah, sepertinya postingan kali ini superpanjang, jadi saya sudahi perih postingan ini..

Selamat siang dan selamat berpanas2an!

IKHLAS, I.K.H.L.A.S

Ini cuma pemikiran random gw saat gw makan siang tadi..
IKHLAS itu ngga segampang pengucapannya..
IKHLAS menurut kamus bahasa indonesia yang gw ulik dari om gugel :

ikh.las

[a] bersih hati; tulus hati: memberi pertolongan dng --; mereka benar-benar --

Referensi: http://kamusbahasaindonesia.org/ikhlas#ixzz1U32Pe6Op
 
Kalo menurut gw secara spesifik,
IKHLAS berarti, nerimo saat kalah dalam pertandingan.
atau menurut bahasa suatu iklan "berbesar hati saat menerima kekalahan"
IKHLAS berarti, tidak membutuhkan balasan ketika menolong orang lain.
IKHLAS berarti, terima saat kamu di hina, tapi kembali padanya saat kamu bisa membuktikan bahwa kamu ngga seperti yang dia 'hina'.
IKHLAS berarti, membiarkan orang yang kamu sayang pergi, saat dia memang ingin pergi.
IKHLAS berarti, ikut bahagia saat sang mantan yang masih dicintai sudah menemukan tambatan hati yang baru. #kode.
IKHLAS berarti, berbesar hati saat menghadapi masalah seberat apapun, dan menyelesaikan masalahnya, bukan malah lari atau menghindarinya.
IKHLAS berarti, tetap tersenyum walaupun sebenernya sakiiiit dan bahkan harus menangis.
 
IKHLAS berarti, gw emang harus IKHLAS.. Ini bulan gw, bulan IKHLAS!
hidup IKHLAS! ;)
 
salam IKHLAS selalu..

Dear  GOD, if you won't give me a nw heart,
then please give me a power while my heart goes missing him.

~heaven knows~

...Maybe my love will come back someday, only heaven know~
Maybe our hearts will find any way, only heaven know~
All i can do is hope, and pray, coz heaven know...

Ah, i'm not in mentioning my memorize about my ex (again), but surely, i love this part of the lyric from Rick Price.. It looks like someone in desperately in love, because they're broke up or separate in long distance or they think they can't keep defending their relationship and one of them still in love..

But he/she surrendering his/her future to GOD, that's why he/she said whether his/her love will come back, or maybe the harder part, they're will find another way a.k.a broke up, only Heaven that will be know..

Yaaa, i'm agree with this song.. We as a human, only could hoping, praying and do the best thing, but only GOD in greatly Heaven know what we should get. Because sometimes, what the best in our mind, it DOESN'T mean will be best for us.

But sure, heaven will always know :)

my 21 wishes

Is that much? i have much wishes, but i still not counted.. is that more than 21 or less? i'll make it into 21 anyway.. because 21 is my age for this year =) At my last birthday on 31 March, i haven't any wishes yet. even a cake with candle on it, i didn't got it.. And since my broke-up-that's-make-me-so-desperately, i felt i didn't have any wish except a new heart. Yeah, i want and need a new heart, made from steel so no one could break it *i already posted on my blog last time*
But now, i feel like i have to move on from all of this shit problem..i feel like i got a new power to stepped on..yeah, sometimes i still looked at my past, but then i go away..( wish me luck, peeps! )
I do have my own plan..my wish.. my future..Surely, i want to write it down, so i could read it everytime..so could be encourage me to make it true :) here they are :

#1 I really want buy a DSLR camera. a canon, maybe 1000D, or 450D.

#2 I really want aside my salary AT LEAST 10% to be saved.

#3 I want to spend my money for some investment.. like buying some gold *that's teaching from my mom :)

#4 I want buy some new mobile phone, from my own money ( as usual ).. i haven't decide which one, maybe BB gemini, soner vivaz or samsung galaxy

#5 I have to make a passport!

#6 I have to go to Singapore or another country this year, only for vacation.

#7 I will assist my bff regarding her financial problem.

#8 I have to be blessed in my office.. make my new office evolve.. search new customer, probably.

#9 I want to liquidate my credits for my own motorcycle this year. i have to!

#10 I want to start attendance for my church, as a singer.

#11 I will taking care my blog, will be often to write blogpost EVEN NO ONE WILL READ IT.

#12 I will try to make a video clip, or covering some single -follow-the-steps-from-briptu-norman-or-sinta and jojo-which-is-famous-because-of-lypsinc-a-song-then-uploading-into-youtube *LOL

#13 I wanna go to Jogja to meet my best friend, if possible on July. Then we go together by train to Jakarta. Sounds great, yeah?

#14 I will REbuild my relationship with GOD, nowdays. i'll be focuss. i'll change my love to "person" become to GOD.

#15 I will make over my self, with a little bit blondie-long-hair :p

#16 I want take more responsibilities in my house. even a small things.. but maybe much about money.

#17 I want make over my bedroom also. which is the roof are broken, i have to put 2 bucket on the floor while rains goes down :(

#18 I don't know why, lately i thought i want to work in the kinda wedding organizer.. kinda crazy me, ya? but, really cool while you see a couple marriage happily, with gorgeous wardrobe, a huge building, a lot of flower everywhere. ah, that's great..

#19 I want buy a fixie bicycle, maybe will be one of my new hobby :D

#20 I want to collect shoes. i think i'm in love with gorgeous shoes. high heels and wedges actually.. remember my height was not too high :(

#21 I am sure, i want to buy a new house for my parents, no matter the way, I still believe GOD knows what i want.

Yeay, finally i know what i want. I finished my 21 wishes. actually they are randomness..
the number 1, doesn't mean that's my first priority. I just write what is on my mind ( because sometimes i forgot it, poor me :p )
And some of them, are simple wish. some again are too-high wish, but still, i believe, when there's a will, there's a way..
I'll keep praying and doing my best as well :)

And i hope in this year, i could make it all comes true.
Wish me luck, peeps ^^v

Ms.A Lot of Dreams and Wishes,
Achie~

Think and thought

Its been long time i am not write in my blog..

And now i just have a random quote from my little 'genius' brain, and i wont it miss.. so i have to write it in my blog :D

GOD make it by HIS own way.. even HE doesn't juggled this thursday become friday..but, STILL, HE make a lil miracle for me :) 
*at least that's quote what i've made and published in my twitter

You know why i write these quote? it just because my God, already make a miracle for me..

It happened today, while  my schedule to my office to Ubud.. I really wished not to goes to Ubud ( then i asked GOD to juggled thursday become friday which is kind of impossible thing ), because i feel so bored there.. nothing to do, except tweeting, facebook-ing kind like that, not my prior job..

And then God answers my pray..my director said we're will not going to Ubud as long as we have many jobs to do.. yeay!

Even just A LITTLE MIRACLE, but in RIGHT TIME, i felt it so wonderful, don't you?

i wish u will always have a miracle then!

xoxo

@chieliciouz

my 20*11 resolution

Awww, it's 2011! Usually, every year, i make my resolutions wish in my binder..

until now i still did it.. i already made in my binder, but now i also have a blog..

i think it is necessary to post even publish in my blog :) 

want to know, are you? please read it carefully..

1. I wish i can rebuild my relationship with Papa J..

My the one and only savior! I wish i could Breath by Pray, Eat by Words of God, 

Walk by Faith, and Live by Grace and Mercy..

I also wish i can be the singers in my church ( servant of God )

2. I really, trully, madly, deeply want camera CANON EOS 1000D or 450D

*God, please read my blog, then grant it!

Well, i really interested with photography actually.. i love to be a model,

but i also wanting to be a photographer..

 

*i can only provide the internet pict :((

3.After i get my DSLR, i will use it for taking a lots of picture in my journey of life..

Sure, it related with my 3rd wish.. i wish i could go for holiday around Indonesia ( at first )..

I want go to LOMBOK, JOGJAKARTA, BANDUNG, MAKASSAR, JAKARTA and maybe BELITUNG..

Pantai kuta-Lombok

4.I wish i could get my soulmate, my partner in my rest of life..

The BEST ONE from GOD..

I really wanting early marriage..haha!

5. i want to get slimmer!!! now my weight is 47kgs..

and i have a target to reach weight (at least) 40kgs..

i have to diet!!! i have to consume a lot of mineral water!!! and i have to get exercise..

aw, why so difficult??

6. SAVING!!! i have to saving my money from my salary around 100-200K/month.

no matter how it can be..i wish someday i can give it to my parents..

7. I wish i have another gadgets.. i wish i have blackberry, ipod 

and flash disk *hey, i don't have a flash disk yet!!!

8. I wanna take some lesson.. like driving, playing guitar..and have a lecture..

yeah, LECTURE! :-s

9. I have to liquidate my credit motorcycle, this year!

10. I wish i could try the new JOB, find new experience..

i am feeling bored with my job now..

11. Try to be a more mature person 

I think 11-resolution is not too much neither few, but still, needs a lot of spirit, 

much of praying, and many things to do to complete the resolution..

What's yours? i am sure you are also have many resolution.. 

Let's start with pray, doing by effort and ending by giving thanks to GOD and to ppl around you!

xoxo,

@chieliciouz

Pergi Dengan Indah

Saat ku tak mampu bertahan lagi
Yang ku mau hanya tak menyakitimu
Biar saja kutanggung sendiri
Cinta itu tak hanya mencari
Kesenangan diri

Saat ku harus katakan perpisahan
Yang kau mau hanya ku tetap bersamamu
Aku sangat mengerti sayangku
Tapi maafkan ini semua
Harus berakhir

Reff:
Aku masih cinta
Itu sebabnya ku pergi
Aku masih sayang
Itu sebabnya ku minta kau berpikir

Cinta bukan buta
Tapi cinta memahami
Semoga hidup ini
Lebih berwarna bagi kita
Meski harus terpisah
Jauh...
Jauh...

Terpisah jauh...

Back to Reff 2x

Aku masih cinta
Aku masih sayang

Biar saja kutanggung sendiri
Cinta itu tak hanya mencari
Kesenangan diri

Gw suka sama lagu kerispatih yang ini..sampe2 gw memutuskan untuk mempublishnya di Blog.. Well, gw tau lagu ini dari my x.. 

Sedikit kilas balik, dia ngasih lirik ini ke gw wktu kita putus..awalnya gw ga tau klo ini lirik lagu..sampe akhirnya dia minta gw buat dengerin lagu Kerispatih- Pergi Dengan Indah  *well i linked to make easier if i want to watched the video* 

Dan, gw jadi belajar dari lagu ini *mengingat ini juga pengalaman pribadi*

Pelajarannya adalah perbedaan antara cewe dan cowo, kenapa?

menurut cowo, kalo dia cinta sama orang, it means : HE has to LEAVE HER for HER happiness.. let's rewind the reffrain : " Aku masih cinta, itu sebabnya ku pergi"

Mereka *refer to HE/cowok* selalu bilang, "karena aku sayang, makanya aku pengen kamu bahagia..sedangkan kalo kamu sama aku kamu tersakiti terus" <- Ini biasa kita sebut dengan KLISE. sebenernya cowo itu punya alesan lain ga yaa? well, kalo mnurut sahabat gw, klo cowo ngmng gt sbnernya karena dia emg ga serius sama kita.. karena kalo emg dia serius, harusnya dia ga akan punya pkiran utk nyakitin kita sedikitpun.. *ini sambil ngebayangin muka si icha (sahabat gw) pas ngebahas topik ini*

Itu sebabnya gw bilang, cewe dan cowo emang beda.. Sedangkan menurut gw (menurut pemikiran temen2 cewe gw yg lain*menurut hasil penelitian, survey dan observasi :D ) :

kalo kita cinta sm orang, it means : I have to SACRIFICE all of i can do to make HIM happy. am i right???

mostly, para cewe berpikiran sama seperti gw..iyalah.. cinta itu kan butuh perjuangan juga pengorbanan..

Well, ini cuman pemikiran gw aja sih.. jgn jadi kontroversi ah, peace yaa ^^v

we still loving you, MAN!

 

 

That's why i called you, Miracle

Hey, aku msh pcaya bahwa km itu ada..

aku jg pcaya km sdg melihat ksabaranku menunggumu..

aku terus pcaya km akan dtg padaku..

aku sgt pcaya km dtg disaat yg plg tepat*saat aku bnr2 tidak bs menduganya..

itulah sebabnya aku sebut km KEAJAIBAN=) ~achieQuote

Dreams and Real Life

We could have dreams, we should have dreams..
First steps : You have to close your eyes, sleep tight, and fall down into "dreamland"..
Sure everybody do it everyday.. But for sure, we can't only make it just a "bunga tidur" ..
We must make it into vision or even obsession..
Now we goes to real life :
you have to open your eyes, wake up from your comfy sleeps, and start to reach your dream..
I have my own quote : "Don't you ever stop to dreaming but please wake up then, bring your to the real life"
Ciayouuu!