Monday, March 23, 2015

2 years living without blogging

I can't believe last time i blogged was on 2013. You know, so many things happened this pass 2 years, until i realize that i still have this blog. Been trying many times to be logged in, since i forget which email i signed for this blog #silly.

Well you might be really shocked by the news that i will wrote here. Yeah, i know i will not posted every details that you missed since last 2 years because it will takes another next 2 years to write :'p
But, this is will be my first post for my really personal life.

These day, i'm pregnant, 8 months already. In doctor prediction, this is supposed to be my 34 weeks pregnancy. Did i married with my boyfie? The answers is NO.
Then? Yeah, my silly, stupid, foolish self which bring me to this situation.
I've almost 2 years have a relationship with my boyfriend ( or if i could say my baby's father ) until last August, i have late period. I have bad feeling about that, since i never been late for the period time.
Then, i have my own self to take pregnancy test in the next month ( still waiting week by week to have period, but it not come yet ). And guest what, i am positively pregnant.
That's the worst day in my life, ever! Knowing that i'm pregnant on that age ( 24 yo ) without married certificate, and hell yeah, i lived in this traditionally Indonesia. That was the taboo things here.
Well it might be no problem if in the next few months we ( read : me and my baby's father ) married, since in Bali, it's such as a "normal" things ( please blame western tradition which have so many influence to Balinese tradition ).
But, from the day i knew i'm pregnant, until i decided to go to the doctor for make sure, my baby's father didn't believe that i'm pregnant.
That day, 18th September 2014 was the day we went to the doctor for the first time. I hear my baby's heart beat. The baby is 2 months already, so she/he have a heart and it works already.
Finally, my baby's father trust that i'm pregnant. He start to promise me a lot of things. Marriage and everything. But, in the journey, right after both of our parents know about my pregnancy ( in the early October ), all things went miserable.
Yes, all was miserable including my life. It starts from his mother, she cursing me many times by her words which is hurt me so damn much. Then, i know something bad about my boyfriend.
HE CHEATED ME A THOUSAND TIMES WITH A THOUSAND BITCHES ( yes, BITCHES, seriously. i could prove everything i said in this post ) which i never know before. Life curse me now, yes?
That's the reason that i finally decided to postponed my wedding. Actually, we already planned our wedding for this year, last January.
After know all of his betrayal, how can i continuously my wedding? Do you will do the same thing if you in my position?  
His parents do the same things to me, they promise me many things but at the end, they doesn't prove even one of they own words. Silly me? Poor them? Maybe yes for both.

So, if i could count, it's been 4 months i never see him ( my baby's father ) only connected once or twice in a week but always ended with fighting. I could live till this far without him. My baby still grow up healthy in my tummy. It just because the mercy of GOD for me and my baby. Not because the guy that doesn't deserve to be the father of my baby. Nor because his/her grandparents money. It's pure because of GOD wants to. GOD will have a good plan for me and my baby. She/He is my everything.. I still doubt that my baby is boy or girl, but doctor prediction is girl. Well i will be really happy if my baby is a girl, because i could share anything with her if she's already be a teenager. But, it's ok too if he's boy, for sure.

I am promise will update this blog more often. Will update about my pregnancy since this is my virtual diary.
Well, actually i am more often to share in my private path.
But, i miss this blog too, so i will try to share a little bit my time for this blog.
Oh ya, if my doctor prediction not wrong, i will deliver my baby on 1st of May, please pray for this ya..

I do hope my miserable story could give you all guys a lesson, so you will not ruin your beautiful life.
Regretting always comes at the end, so don't waste your time with someone that don't deserve to.
Life is too short, live it happily, and blaaaaaah.

Last, my preggie picture :')

My 6 month pregnancy

Chieliciouz-A mom to be

Saturday, September 21, 2013


Just had a chance to post something.. therefore, i would like to proudly present my INSTAGRAM account, yeay! Just please click the link above to know my daily updates. Actually i have a lot of stories that i could share with you, but i'm still in my period ( i could use that for alibi, thanks God I'm a girl. ) , that's makes me too lazy to post about my recent activities, haha! *Need your favor to forgive me* 
Gotta updates to you after i move to another place *1st clue* with better connection and gadgets ( i hope ).

See ya!


Sunday, July 7, 2013

Beach Club Cruise by Bali Hai

Tadaaa! Come back with another post ( in a day ) such as a real blogger, hahaha!
So this time, let me show you the fun and memorable activity we've ( read : my office mate ) done last April ( One month before I submit my resignation :p ).
Yes, April ( #BadBlogger ) on 14st, We went to Lembongan Island for free by Bali Hai . We was able to join for the program called Beach Club Cruise , FOR FREE! Did you see I'm wrote, FREE??? Yes, that's totally free for us. Just because we had support them by sending our guest there, we got complimentary plus product knowledge plus product trial for their program, DOUBLE YEAY!
Can you imagine, beach, gold sand, blue sky, clear sea, sunshine all of that things ARE my FAVORITE since I live in BALI. Can you imagine how i felt? #SPEECHLESS
That day, we went to Benoa Harbor by our own motorbike. Me with Rahma, Ibu Artati ( the madam of accounting ) by herself and Mas Pam ( the operation man ) by himself. Don't ask why we went by motorbike, since the program was FREE and if we have to pay, it's around Rp. 625.000/person. Praise The Lord, we got it FREE ( I'd love to repeat that word :'p ). Then until the boarding time ( its 09.00 am if I'm not mistake ) we will cruising with vessel. Okay, no more bla blah, I'll explain by photos below..

Welcoming 'dancer' even they're not dancing at all. You can take a photo with them. It cost IDR 100.000 if you want the original one >.< 

ON BOARD with my partner ( Mas Pam and Mba Artati )

Our breakfast snack ( free! )

Click here, there, here. This is OUR fun man!

It's around 30-45 minutes cruising and it feels sooo bad. #MabukLaut
Therefore I sit there, facing the wind so i didn't get puke :)) 

Arrive in pontoon ( kind a deck in the middle of the sea ) this is the place were another program ( Read : Reef Cruise )  supposed to be.
For Beach Club Cruise, our place is at beach. But we could do another activities such as snorkeling, village tour, banana boat, semi submersible coral viewer, etc. Therefore, we have to move to smaller boat to go to the beach.

Welcome to my paradise, everybody.. We arrive safely :')
Changing into swimsuit and...


This is our lunch menu. Actually its buffet bbq, but forgive me, i'm not taking the pict of the restaurant >.<
The food was soooo good, satisfying! *HIGHLY RECOMMENDED*
After doing all the activities ( mostly in the sea or beach, which I can't take the pictures due to I have no anti-air cameras ) We went to the pontoon again to prepare to go back.

Due to the semi submersible coral ( ship ) still docking, we just can see the cute fishes there.
The name is semi submarine dock *or whatever the name is
On the way to the harbor

Did my skin get tanned?

with mba Artati

Yeay, it feels so good that I could try those program. That's one of the advantages you get when you're work at the travel agent for sure :p 
You know, I cannot swim at all, I even too afraid to swim. But there, I got private lesson from the life guard there, then he teach me how to breath in the deep sea ( or even snorkeling ), and now I'm more brave for it *call me nekat then. And really nice to see what's inside the sea for real ( for the first time in my life ) and it makes me want to go to Gili Trawangan again and practice the life guard teach me. Kyaaa! 

Well I', off now. Gotta go!
See ya for the next adventures babes..

P.S : If you're planning to go to Bali, I'm definitely recommend you to try those activities ( yes, a bit pricey but worth to try for sure! ) Just click the link above for further information. 


Sunday Updates

Hi fellas! Yes I know, its been a long time ago since my last post #CallMeBadBloggerThen. But for your information, I've been through so many things that time. Therefore, to redeem my laziness, I will give you a couple of post today, yeay! Before that, let me explain the quick of my journey along my "silent time"..

This is my photo diary about my sickness at the hospital. 
1. DC from my doctor
2. The result of my blood test ( after 3 days of fever )
3. My hand got so many red dots *DB signs*
4. Finally, 21st of March went to HOSPITAL *my first and last time i wish*
5. I have to shoot my meals after i ate that, my boyfie asked me for that
6. Watching TV alone. almost everyday i spent at the hospital by myself :_(
7. Almost healed. Time for taking pict with my nephew
8. Getting better, look at my face, it's shinner than the days before hahaha! 
9. The best thing of getting sick is, you GOT what you've want. Yes, i want lasagna please..
I know, I'm kinda forgot to tell you that I've been stay at the Hospital around 5 days because of DB ( Demam Berdarah ). It's happened in the middle of March, 21st of march for the exact. You know, I never been so that awful before. My sick list is just flu, cough, or the worst is maag. But that time was the worst ill of my life for sure. I've never been stay at the hospital because of my ill ( except when i was new baby born, i'm a weak baby, doctor ever diagnosed my have a paru-paru basah *which i don't know the English is ).
So that's would be my first and last time laying there. My hemoglobin was only 86 that time ( from the normal is 140-440 ) which is under the average, and its getting lower at the day i went to the hospital ( its 56, wtf !@#$% ). So I've been there for 5-really-suffering-and-sick-and-awful-days because of the infus was really sick, and 2 TIMES A DAY the doctor will take 5ml of my blood, REALLY SICK OF THEM!
The best news is, I GAIN my WEIGHT down for 3 KILOGRAMS everybody!!! *SUPER PROUD*

Went to BALI HAI!!!
I will post in separate post later, yeay!

Look at my recent profile at my Facebook :')
Yes, yes.. I finally decided to resign from my last office PT. Access Asia Holiday , then TRYING and MOVING to hotel. Mmm, that's my really BIG decision, that's also my BIG step which is can change everything in my life ( a new and better level of my career of course ). Sometimes I can't believe what I've done. A little regret comes into my heart, but, I'm kind a 'keras kepala' person. I will hold on into what i'm believe in it. Praise The Lord, I'm still grateful with this decision I took. Why it feels so tough? First, I'm not an easy to blend with new peoples, hard to adaptation person, and enjoy already in the comfort zone.
So the questions comes up to my head, how if the environment was not good as my last office? how if i have no partner? how if the job is boring? how if that? how if this? But, hey, I have to move on! I have to take a little ( OR MORE BIG step ) for better life. To pursue my dream.. 
Now I'm almost 2 months here ( works as Reservation at The Oasis Beach Benoa ) , and I ( have to ) enjoying my jobs here. Even tough, the reality laughing so loud at me. I have to face it, I have to fight for it. 
Well, I still need more energy for that, therefore I need you guys to pray for me ( may God bless you, whom pray for me abundantly ) :')

My love for my BoyFie is getting bigger, even we still arguing sometimes. But that's what they called LOVE, isn't?
Nothing much I could say regarding the last June. Since I still on process to adaptation. Arghhh, it's getting harder but I won't give up! And my love life also. I wont give up on our relationship baby.. God know's we worth ed :')

Chillin with my best best best friend! what a lovely 
Yes, finally, after our last meeting ( on Elisa's birthday on November ) we meet again. With mom-soon-to-be Icha ( look at her 4months tummy, big isn't? ) and the hijab's Elisa. All of us changes guys.. 8 months of living apart, makes us grow older, wiser and 'bigger' :p But the trend mark of us is not changed at all, OUR CRAZINESS. hahaha.. I hope we still could gathering together like before, maybe with her child, her husband and mine :p

Well that's my updates from march till now. I promise will post more. And I hope I will get more followers btw T.T


Friday, April 19, 2013

Browny Hair

A bunch of apologized will always be my greetings for this blog. So again, sorry for lack of update :p
Well as my promise before, I just want to show you how brown my hair :D *narcissism detected*
Yes, I finally had a chance to toning my hair into, mmm I don't know what is exactly those color is. 
But there written its "mocha" , I'm not really love the result because actually I want the dark one, but all the color i wanted is none T_T
All right, I will let my photos explain it :)
P.s : All the photos is taken on 31st March, it's on my birthday :") Yes, it's been a month ago and I just got a chance to post it, fufufufu.

*Toilet detected*

@ Pizza Hut

What do you think guys? Did you can see the color? Sorry for bad quality of the picture since it's taken from my old and tired blackberry smartphone >.<
Well, I thought I want to change the color again, since my boyF said I'm following one of his favorite's girlband personel, LOL x))