Thanks God Its March

Time flies so fast, isn't? I still though just last month i wrote love-sad-story with my EX, posting a lot of things about him, but now, I had a new partner of life :') 

All times I've been passed, means a lot for me. God trying to teach me every single day i lived. 

There's so much blessing I got from HIM. All the bitter sweet comes along that time, and bring me to my-grateful-list-which-I-have-to-share-to-you  :

*Thanks God, I still alive till today, its the GREATEST GRACE from my only one Jesus.

*Thanks God, I didn't waste so many times to crying for my EX. 

*Thanks God, You give me the new ( and hope my last ) partner of life named Simon Angga.

*Thanks God, my family knows about my relationship. And I wish my family could accept him and his family too.

*Thanks God, I've been passed 1 month 5 days with my lovely Simon Angga. I also wish GOD will bless our relationship, I just want GOD controlling our relationship, because HE knows what best for us. My pray till today, I could be forever with him. Yeah, i have a lot of wish regarding my relationship ( maybe will share for the next post ). 

*Thanks God, now I live alone ( not with my parents or even my sister/brother ). Well sometimes with my friend office ( Rahma ). All things I have to managed by myself, from washes clothes *Aaa i miss my mommy! since I always complaining everyday while she washing all my clothes :( I have to buy meals since I still not have a stove or any cooking tools x( I even not have Tv guys! How poor I am >.<
But again, it brought me to the decision that my family choose. All those circumstance make me to have a super big big heart. My life even yours never getting easier, trust me! It will getting harder and harder, but sure, it can be BETTER and BETTER if you could pass it. The question is, how come I ( in my case ) pass it all? My answers : KEEP ON GOING in GOD PATH, STOP COMPLAINING and START BE GRATEFUL in EVERY SITUATION AND CONDITION.

Yes, nothing we could do except be grateful in every condition. I know, it wont change the conditions, but it really works to change your mindset, your mood, your heart, yes, it would make you happier, it would make everything LOOKS easier. It helps anyway. 

And last but not least, 

*Thanks God, its MARCH already! Yeay, the month of my birthday. My month!!! 

I will getting older, and (wish) wiser, and (wish) stronger, and (wish) smarter. 

Do I have so much wishes for this month? OF COURSE! So March, please be the nicest month for me :)

xoxo,

Chieliciouz

Happy ever after, Icha!

As my promise long time ago *again, please forgive me to give you a late post. Just because I got a sweet escape three passed day ago #Dancing. Here they are.. This post made specially for my best friend, Icha..

She got her wedding! Her perfect wedding, with her love boy. Aaa, it so make me envy till max *give me a gun, please...* Yes, 19 May 2012, finally Icha held her wedding, after a super long love journey. 

I do felt so happy for both of them, honestly.

And this is the picture, guys *because nothing word i could say anymore. I'd like to burying myself due to jealousy*

This is the invitation. Yes, I made it by my self, specially for them  *love*

Me with Elis

The wedding blessing *or whatever the name is*

Putting the ring each other

Me beside their wedding cake :P

fyi : the boy on the right side of icha is someone i even don't know him.
I just borrow him for a minute, LOL x))))

The girl with blue dress is Revi, my (old) best friend.
Before we're friends with Elis, Revi was me and Icha best friend.

ZOOM IN THE BRIDE AND THE GROOM.

ZOOM IN THE BOY-WHICH-I-BORROW :))))
*Oh well I'm so mean. I know him. He's Icha's brother friend.
We met there and he came alone, so why not? ;D
FYI : I have his bbm contact, but I never chat with him.
Ok, escape.

And, for the extras, I give you a special posting, again. Yay! This is about Icha's birthday on 19 August. I'm a little bit confused about what I should give to her for her birthday present, due to, you-know-what-i-mean she already become a wife. So I decide to give her a simple present, cupcakes! Elisa told me that I ever give her birthday cake, 2 years ago, a brownies made by my self. But now I don't want to make it, I'm too lazy lately *forgive me*
And this is also the reason why I delay my post about her wedding. It's because I wanted to post on the date of her birthday :D So it could be 2 big beautiful moment #MajorLove.

So on independence day, I went to Denpasar accompanied by Elisa to searching birthday cake.

And actually we planned to give her surprise, but on that day, Elisa having Ied Mubarak so the plan was just a failed plan #Pffft

So I went there alone. Just for give her the cake, and this is the picture, enjoy!

Those three girls represent of us.

Cupcake from Cupcake Company

Icha and her hubby

Deeply apologize for those bad background.
There are Icha's temporary house, called  KOST.

Do you really think we're just like twins?
Everybody who knows us, always said we're have similar face, are us?

Happy birthday, Cha.. I always wishing you a bunch of happiness for your little family, a jar of wisdom for you to face this cruel world, a cup of mature and wise for you to be a wife and future-mom, a thousand of people who love you so much ( especially me ) will be beside you, in every precious time. Wishing you live happily ever after, Cha, as our wish. Last but not least, wish you a super great birthday, dear! *A SUPER BIG HUG OF MISSING YOU AND A TENDER OF KISSES WHICH LOVE YOU FROM ME* *I wanna cry now :'(
I wish in the next year, on your birthday, if we still have time together, you already have a baby, and me already have a husband, BIG AMEN :)


And another extras, again! *Drum rolls*

 MY NARCISSIST FACE ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з

P.S : I'm really sorry for super bad resolution of all those photos, it's just because that was taken from my blackberry since my digicam sick 1 years ago :__(

xoxo
Chieliciouz

Dear  GOD, if you won't give me a nw heart,
then please give me a power while my heart goes missing him.

Dear my lovely God

Dear God,

I don't know how to comunicate with you lately. i feel my pray is only hanging up in the sky, not heard by YOU. yeah, i know that's only my feeling coz you knows everythings, even my future rite?

God, i really miss you. I know this is trully my fault. You never leave me, but i leave You. I'm so stupid, ya?

I fall in love with some guy ( not from You ) ( for many times ), then i forget You.

After i broke up ( again ), i'm so much desperate, i feel like i wanna give up, i feel like my world is goes crumble. I felt like i lost everything. And again, all are my fault ( i knew it ).

I'm sorry God, i didn't follow your way. i choose my own way, then i lost in my way *crying out*

I'm sorry God, i only use my own brain, not yours.

I don't know are You wanna accept my apologize or not, but i hope so.

I'm nothing without You, God..I just want come back to You, but i don't know which way. It is too dark, God.. Please show me the way, God.. Please.. *i'm begging You*

Please give me a brand new heart, maybe made from steel or something ( not the fragille one ).

Please give me Your holy spirit, to guide me to stepped into Your way ( only your way/the truth way ).

Please forgive me, forgive all of my ignorance, my stupidness, my fault.

Please give me your amnesty.. *oh look, i asked first then i do apologize *this is my second fault --"
I hope you read these letter God, and start to forgive me and fulfill my wish..
i wont wishing him again, God.. i just wish i could come back to You. I just wanting to placed in Your courts.
Flying high like an eagle, passed the storm with You. I will never thinking about who's will be my husband, i'm just surrender to You.. Because i believe, You are the only one who know which, and who the best for me..
Amen