Thanks God Its March

Time flies so fast, isn't? I still though just last month i wrote love-sad-story with my EX, posting a lot of things about him, but now, I had a new partner of life :') 

All times I've been passed, means a lot for me. God trying to teach me every single day i lived. 

There's so much blessing I got from HIM. All the bitter sweet comes along that time, and bring me to my-grateful-list-which-I-have-to-share-to-you  :

*Thanks God, I still alive till today, its the GREATEST GRACE from my only one Jesus.

*Thanks God, I didn't waste so many times to crying for my EX. 

*Thanks God, You give me the new ( and hope my last ) partner of life named Simon Angga.

*Thanks God, my family knows about my relationship. And I wish my family could accept him and his family too.

*Thanks God, I've been passed 1 month 5 days with my lovely Simon Angga. I also wish GOD will bless our relationship, I just want GOD controlling our relationship, because HE knows what best for us. My pray till today, I could be forever with him. Yeah, i have a lot of wish regarding my relationship ( maybe will share for the next post ). 

*Thanks God, now I live alone ( not with my parents or even my sister/brother ). Well sometimes with my friend office ( Rahma ). All things I have to managed by myself, from washes clothes *Aaa i miss my mommy! since I always complaining everyday while she washing all my clothes :( I have to buy meals since I still not have a stove or any cooking tools x( I even not have Tv guys! How poor I am >.<
But again, it brought me to the decision that my family choose. All those circumstance make me to have a super big big heart. My life even yours never getting easier, trust me! It will getting harder and harder, but sure, it can be BETTER and BETTER if you could pass it. The question is, how come I ( in my case ) pass it all? My answers : KEEP ON GOING in GOD PATH, STOP COMPLAINING and START BE GRATEFUL in EVERY SITUATION AND CONDITION.

Yes, nothing we could do except be grateful in every condition. I know, it wont change the conditions, but it really works to change your mindset, your mood, your heart, yes, it would make you happier, it would make everything LOOKS easier. It helps anyway. 

And last but not least, 

*Thanks God, its MARCH already! Yeay, the month of my birthday. My month!!! 

I will getting older, and (wish) wiser, and (wish) stronger, and (wish) smarter. 

Do I have so much wishes for this month? OF COURSE! So March, please be the nicest month for me :)

xoxo,

Chieliciouz

Summer Paradise!

Oh, Oh
Take me back, take me back
Oh yeah
Back to summer paradise

My heart is sinking
As I'm lifting up
Above the clouds away from you
And I can't believe I'm leaving
Oh I don't kno-kno-know what I'm gonna do

But someday
I will find my way back
To where your name
Is written in the sand

Cause I remember every sunset
I remember every word you said
We were never gonna say goodbye
Singing la-da-da-da-da

Tell me how to get back to
Back to summer paradise with you
And I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh
I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh

(Tell 'em)

My soul is broken
Streets are frozen
I can't stop these feelings melting through

And I'd give away a thousand days, oh
Just to have another one with you

What'd you say

Well real life can wait
(it can wait)
We're crashing like waves
(uh-huh)
We're playing in the sand
(me and you)
Holding your hand

Cause I remember every sunset
I remember every word you said
We were never gonna say goodbye
Singing la-da-da-da-da

Tell me how to get back to
Back to summer paradise with you
And I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh
I'll be there in a heartbeat
Oh-oh

Yeah I remember sunny mornings
And summer evenings
Now you're right next to me
And I am freezing
Was it real?
Oh baby, tell me, was I dreaming?
How can you show me paradise,
When I'm leaving?

Now my heartbeat is sinking
Hope's shrinking
When I try to speak no words
Lip-syncing
Hope this is not just wishful thinking
Tell me that you care
And I'll be there in a heartbeat

.SIMPLE PLAN.

Happy ever after, Icha!

As my promise long time ago *again, please forgive me to give you a late post. Just because I got a sweet escape three passed day ago #Dancing. Here they are.. This post made specially for my best friend, Icha..

She got her wedding! Her perfect wedding, with her love boy. Aaa, it so make me envy till max *give me a gun, please...* Yes, 19 May 2012, finally Icha held her wedding, after a super long love journey. 

I do felt so happy for both of them, honestly.

And this is the picture, guys *because nothing word i could say anymore. I'd like to burying myself due to jealousy*

This is the invitation. Yes, I made it by my self, specially for them  *love*

Me with Elis

The wedding blessing *or whatever the name is*

Putting the ring each other

Me beside their wedding cake :P

fyi : the boy on the right side of icha is someone i even don't know him.
I just borrow him for a minute, LOL x))))

The girl with blue dress is Revi, my (old) best friend.
Before we're friends with Elis, Revi was me and Icha best friend.

ZOOM IN THE BRIDE AND THE GROOM.

ZOOM IN THE BOY-WHICH-I-BORROW :))))
*Oh well I'm so mean. I know him. He's Icha's brother friend.
We met there and he came alone, so why not? ;D
FYI : I have his bbm contact, but I never chat with him.
Ok, escape.

And, for the extras, I give you a special posting, again. Yay! This is about Icha's birthday on 19 August. I'm a little bit confused about what I should give to her for her birthday present, due to, you-know-what-i-mean she already become a wife. So I decide to give her a simple present, cupcakes! Elisa told me that I ever give her birthday cake, 2 years ago, a brownies made by my self. But now I don't want to make it, I'm too lazy lately *forgive me*
And this is also the reason why I delay my post about her wedding. It's because I wanted to post on the date of her birthday :D So it could be 2 big beautiful moment #MajorLove.

So on independence day, I went to Denpasar accompanied by Elisa to searching birthday cake.

And actually we planned to give her surprise, but on that day, Elisa having Ied Mubarak so the plan was just a failed plan #Pffft

So I went there alone. Just for give her the cake, and this is the picture, enjoy!

Those three girls represent of us.

Cupcake from Cupcake Company

Icha and her hubby

Deeply apologize for those bad background.
There are Icha's temporary house, called  KOST.

Do you really think we're just like twins?
Everybody who knows us, always said we're have similar face, are us?

Happy birthday, Cha.. I always wishing you a bunch of happiness for your little family, a jar of wisdom for you to face this cruel world, a cup of mature and wise for you to be a wife and future-mom, a thousand of people who love you so much ( especially me ) will be beside you, in every precious time. Wishing you live happily ever after, Cha, as our wish. Last but not least, wish you a super great birthday, dear! *A SUPER BIG HUG OF MISSING YOU AND A TENDER OF KISSES WHICH LOVE YOU FROM ME* *I wanna cry now :'(
I wish in the next year, on your birthday, if we still have time together, you already have a baby, and me already have a husband, BIG AMEN :)


And another extras, again! *Drum rolls*

 MY NARCISSIST FACE ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з

P.S : I'm really sorry for super bad resolution of all those photos, it's just because that was taken from my blackberry since my digicam sick 1 years ago :__(

xoxo
Chieliciouz

BFF

This post I dedicated to my super love best friend ( in Bali  ) Elisa and Icha ..

We've been met from the first time I came in into senior high school. I met both of them. 

And we become so close after we graduated on 2008. Then this is the story begin..

*I will tell you from the tons of picture below..*

*Please bear with me, sure, because I really miss them, sooo muchhh!!!*

*Caution, the damage of your eyes caused by all of the picture below is out of my responsibility :p*

Left-Right : Elisa, Icha and of course, Me.
Look at our "Jadul" face -__-"

*unedited*

From this picture, we named our gank became : Genk Gocenk.
Ps : Gocenk is one of the menus from KFC :P

It is around Sep 2009 *if i'm not mistake*

via webcam

@ KFC Jimbaran (again until next 6 photos, please don't close my blog)

I don't know what I supposed to edit *clueless*

Photo studio @ Jazz Photo Studio 

@ Jazz Photo Studio edited by me

Icha's 20th birthday
*in the really early morning, we came into icha's house and bring her to the beach, perfect!
And those of our "inner beauty" #MukaBaruBangun

This is the night party in Ranaka Villa

@ Mangroove, photograph by Edward Djong

18 Sep 2011

05 May 2012

If I could count, we have been 4 years together. We're so close. We always share EVERYTHING even the worst sins we have done *secret* Sometimes we go out, to the beach only for taking photos, sharing, make jokes or even laughing at the absurd people around us, eat and many more.

We're truly different. Icha is the boyish one. She's friendly but a little bit "ignorer" person. And Elis is the sexiest, but she is the wise one. And me? I'm the smallest, they always called me with "bocil" . They also call me the creative one, the moderator :p 

We have been passed many things : problems, happy moment, laugh, cry, truth, lie, love and hate too.

I really feel they're the best person that GOD gives to me *thanks God* I really blessed with them beside me.

As I mentioned above, now I really miss both of them.. It's been 2 months since the last time I met them.

Last time we met is when ICHA WEDDING. Yes guys, Icha married!!! I though I ever told you before ( on my birthday post ). I promise will post the wedding party soon *really sorry to forget to posting here :'( #BadBlogger #BadFriend X(

Actually, because of her marriage, we never meet again *so sad* yeah, I know about the privacy and the privilege Icha and her husband. Aa, I though young marriage will be great, but I changed my mind :)))

And Elisa, she's too busy now. With her boyfie. Yes, I'm alone now. I'm a single one ( the one who don't have any bofie yet )*crying out* 

You know, we ever dreamed about our future. When we have boyfie ( each of us ), we will hanging out for triple date. And then, we get married one by one, then in the next trip, we will be with our husband. And the next time, we will gather together with our children. Aaaa, that's sweet, isn't?

But the fact is different. After Icha get married, she so hard when I asked to going out. Even Elis too!

Elis not married yet, but her boyfie always forbid her to going out with me. And in another time, her boyfie join with us *which is so suck. How come I tell my story if there's any another boy. It strange you know?*

Not only hard to meet, we also rare for sending text message each other, WTH! Almost every one week, I send text message to them, but only Elis who replied. Icha, rarely. hikssssssss.

Now, I really want to meet them again. I want that time fly back :( I wish I could :(

Anyway, I already sent text message, but they didn't really concern about our friendship.
I know, both of them never read my blog. They even didn't know I have a blog, because *sorry* they're a little bit oldies :p But, I wish they really know, HOW I MISS THEM.

*BONUS PICT*

This is the last time we met. on ICHA'S WEDDING look our craziness, huh?!
*Sorry for blurred photo, i take it with my bb*

*All photo taken from my facebook, therefore the resolution are small. Due to I have no one our photo in my office laptop :(

xoxo

YOU're still my sunshine

Yes, you are still my sunshine.. No matter how much rain dropped, you still there..
Shinning me in another way. And I still feel you.
You never hide, only the clouds glad to covers you.
No matter how dark the night covering my world, you still there, shinning another place..
People said you're up rise from east and drowning to the west, but in fact, you're never moved, but the world spinning near you.
You're the one which make us wake up in the morning.
You're the one we loved in the afternoon.
And you're still be the reason for me to thankful to your creator.
You shine beautifully and coloring my world.
You shine perfectly to give us the energy to live.
Sometimes you shine so bright and I close my eyes from you, let my hand cover me. It doesn't mean I careless of you. I still need you in my every single day.  

"Dear sunshine, don't you ever leave me in this dark world.. I really need your shine to bright my day..I'm so in love with you.. sincerely, your freak secret admire"

**Photos taken from my blackberry, a little finishing touch with picmonkey. Location : Pantai Muaya, Jimbaran. 17 May 2012**

Life keeps on turning

"Losing you is not the end of the world, but its true, that's definitely hurt.."*

*No word i could say for today, *I'M INTO MELLOW FEELING NOWDAYS* so, i hope this part of lyric from Mocca-Life Keeps On Turning , could change my mood.

from loving to missing

Pic description : 1. Preparing, 2. After a few days, 3. After more than a week, 4. After 2 weeks i should throw away the water, 5. Me turning on the light

Well, as you seen in the picture above, there is a gift from DEE while he was visited me last January. Named crystal garden. Yes, you make a beautiful crystal by yourself with the materials which already provided in that box ( Pic 1 ). This is a super lovely gift I ever had. Since I've never got any gift, especially from my someone special -___-" I'm too excited to made it last time. But, so sorry, I don't know where to buy it, just ask Dee, HAHAHA!

Sure, really happy to wait day by day, while the crystal growing up within my feel leading them to grow beautifully <3 

Yesss, almost every day I told him the evolution of these crystal. I captured, then i send the pic via bbm. 

*In that time, before we're both losing contact until I write these post #SuddenlySad.

I thought i made a mistake, I dip the water a little bit much, so the crystal not growing so well.

And Dee always blame me about it :(

Dee also said that I'm not doing it with all of my lovely feeling. About these, Dee was really WRONG.

I made it with a super missing him feeling, I even made it with a full of love.

If i could say, the crystal growing within loving feeling me to him.

He said, he tried to find "I LOVE YOU" tags with pink color of the crystal. But he didn't found it. So he choose "MISSING YOU" tags, wishing me know that he missing me.

This is have been 4 months from that time. Time goes so fast. Just like his feeling.

His feeling gone as fast as the crystal grown. Yes, his feeling are gone too fast before I realized.

Not like my feeling while I made it, growing up everyday. It become bigger and bigger.

But yeah, again, blame the time. Time changes everything they want, everytime they needed to.

Now feeling of loving him, change become feeling of REALLY MISSING him.

Missing mean not just languished someone, it means losing a thing.

But here I am, only could keeping my feeling inside my heart. Cannot tell him, just hoping he will realize someday. And wish, the crystal tell the truth, he's missing me :)

LOOK THOSE COLOR. IT SHINE SO BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL IN THE DARK :)

P.S : Dee, if you read these, I just want you to know how I miss you. This saturday, brings me to the feeling of missing you :( 

You know what, I will always keep that gift forever. I'll remember that I ever love you when I see that crystal, and i will interpret that you missing me too when I see it :)

Miss you, Dee..

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TRANSLATION

Ya, seperti yang lo lihat di gambar diatas, ada hadiah dari DEE pas dia ketemu gw bulan Januari lalu. Namanya Crystal Garden. Ya, disini lo membuat kristal indah itu sendiri dengan bahan-bahan yang udah tersedia didalam box di gambar nomer 1. Ini hadiah terindah yang pernah gw dapet. Sejak gw nggak pernah dapet hadiah apapun terutama dari orang yang spesial -____-" Gw terlalu bersemangat buat bikin itu kemaren.

Tapi maaf, gw gak tau dimana harus beli itu, tanya aja sama si Dee, hahaha!

Bener deh, seneng banget nunggu hari ke hari, ketika kristal itu tumbuh besar dan indah dipimpin sama perasaan gw <3

Ya, hampir tiap hari gw kasih tau perkembangan si kristal sama Dee, gw foto dan gw kirim gambarnya via bbm. *Pada waktu itu, sebelum kita berdua bener-bener kehilangan kontak sama dia sampe detik gw nulis postingan ini #MendadakSedih.

Gw rasa gw membuat kesalahan ketika memasukkan air kedalemnya, kayaknya kebanyakan, jadi nggak bertumbuh dengan baik. Dan Dee selalu nyalahin gw gara-gara itu :(

Dee juga bilang, itu gara-gara gw nggak sepenuh hati ngerjainnya, dan dalam hal ini Dee SALAH besar.

Gw bikinnya dengan perasaan kangen yang super, bahkan dengan perasaan  penuh cintaaa #aisssh *ini di indonesiain jadi lucu yaaah >.<

Kalo boleh gw bilang, kristal ini gw buat dengan perasaan cinta gw sama si Dee.

Dia bilang sih, dia nyari yang tulisannya "I LOVE YOU" dengan kristalnya berwarna pink, tapi dia nggak ketemu ( kehabisan katanya ), jadi dia pilih "MISSING YOU", berharap gw tau kalo dia kangen sama gw.

Ini udah berjalan 4 bulan dari waktu itu. Waktu berjalan sangat cepat, kaya perasaannya dia.

Perasaannya hilang sama cepatnya dengan tumbuhnya kristal itu ( cuma 2 minggu mamen! ).

Ya, perasaannya bener-bener udah ilang, sebelum gw bener-bener menyadarinya.

Nggak seperti perasaan gw saat gw bikin kristal itu, bertumbuh setiap hari. Jadi semakin besar, dan besar.

Lagi lagi, salahkan waktu. Waktu merubah apapun yang dia mau, dan kapanpun dia perlukan.

Sekarang, perasaan cinta gw ke dia, berubah menjadi perasaan SANGAT MERINDUKAN dia.

Missing disini bukan cuma berarti merindukan seseorang, tapi juga kehilangan suatu hal.

Tapi disini gw sekarang, cuman bisa nyimpen perasaan gw didalem hati gw yang paling dalem. Gak bisa ngungkapin ke dia, cuma bisa berharap dia bakalan sadar suatu hari nanti. 

Dan berharap kristal itu ngomong yang sebenernya, kalo dia bener-bener kangen sama gw :)

Happy Blessed Bornday, Jeleeek!

Yaaay, hari ini si Dee ulang tahun!!! Aaaa, bingung mau ngomong apaan, hahahaha.

Semalem udah bela-belain begadang buat bikin "gift" buat si Dee, sekalian ngucapin di jam 00.10 *masa kata si Dee, di jam nya dia kurang 5 menit, zzzzz. Dia pake waktu indonesia bagian belah mana yak?! Ngaret abis jamnya -___-"

Tapi tetep aja ya, bukan gw yang pertama :(( *nangis dipojokan*

Oke, semalem itu gw niaaaat banget foto-foto yang ada tulisan happy blessed bornday Jeleek dengan berbagai gaya *susah membedakan antara narsis sama kreatif :p 

Terus niaaaaaat banget ngedit-ngeditnya dengan mata terkantuk-kantuk, nyolong laptop dari kamar si papa, ah sesuatu banget lah :D

Terus, sempet telpon Dia juga. Aaah, seneeeeng banget denger greetings nya Dia..

Dee : "Assalamualaikum.."

Gw : "Walaikumsalam.."

Dee : "Apa sayang???" *Serius ini nada dan panggilan terindah sepanjang gw kenal Dee :))

( Iya, nadanya seneng banget *walaupun gak tau senengnya gara-gara apaan, gara-gara gw apa bukan zzzz )

Terus, ngucapin selamat ulang tahun, ngobrol sebentar.. Hmmm, indah banget deh :)

Hmm, kemaren gw bilang sama Dee kaya lagunya si Adele *favoritnya si Dee banget dah.. "I wish nothing but the best for you.."

Padahal nggak juga siiih.. Kebalikannya, I WISH A LOT AND SURE, WISH THE BEST FOR YOU.

Iyap, doa gw buat Dee adalah, sebagai berikut ( sebagian dari doa ini sudah terucap pas telponan sama Dee ) :

*semoga Dee semakin dewasa

*semakin ganteng (eeemm.. )

*semakin rajin, gak gampang putus asa, ga sering-sering ngeluhnya, 

*makin tuff dalam menghadapi segala masalah, makin wise biar nggak salah ambil keputusan

*semakin kurusss, eh tapi jangan deh, ntar ga unyu-unyu lagi x(

*semoga Dee nggak batu lagi.. makan teratur, kurangin ngerokoknya, istirahat yang cukup, banyak minum air putih, sering-sering ganti kaos, pake jaket kalo dingin ( inget alerginya ), ngga ngebut-ngebut bawa mobil/motor *astaga achie, details yaah x_x

*semoga Dee dibukain jalan yang terbaik buat karirnya entah kerjaan, PNS nya atau usahanya, amiiiin

*semoga Dee dapetin jodoh yang terbaik, supaya gw rela :( 

*semoga Dee nggak lupa sama gw sampe kapanpun, tetep contact sama gw sampe kapanpun, amiiin

*semoga Dee sehat selalu, panjang umur, murah rejeki *Oke yang ini klasik :p

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, semoga gw bisa dinner sama si Dee, hahaha, kalo kamu baca Dee, kamu masih ngutang ini sama aku :D

Yeeesss, I wish all the best for you, Dee..

Kado buat Dee : 

Kado lainnya menyusul yaah, Dee..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEE ( ◦˘ з(◦'ںˉ◦) ( ◦˘ з(◦'ںˉ◦) ( ◦˘ з(◦'ںˉ◦)
And I miss you so *gimme hug*

Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below

When you too in love to let it go

If you never try you will never know

Just what your worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And I..

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face

And I..

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you.

**Yesterday i watched glee on star world. And found these beautiful songs. Actually this songs originally from Cold Play, which i loved so much.. But in the link i embed above, which all glee cast as the choir was super great! and yes, i love the lyric madly!
It is about the disappointed feeling of someone but, believe, HIS lights will guide you, and somebody's will try to fix you..

Happy wednesday, Peeps!

Come back oh crumbly soul~

I'm back! haha, pasti pada bingung deh.. Tumben Achie cepet banget move on nya.. zzzzz

Sebenernya setelah postingan terakhir, Gw dapet banyak banget pelajaran.

Yap, pelajaran tentang harusnya Gw ngga main-main sama perasaan Gw, pelajaran tentang harusnya Gw tetep pada pendirian dan apa yang udah disepakati ga boleh plinplan, pelajaran tentang rasa memiliki dan rasa sayang.

Ah, i have a lot lesson from him! 

Dan yang paling penting adalah pelajaran buat bisa bangkit dari segala keterpurukan Gw ( tanpa harus menyesali apapun yang udah terjadi ). Yeah, Gw ngerasa harusnya Gw mengasihani diri Gw sendiri karena berkompromi sama hati Gw. Gw bermenye-menye di postingan terakhir, seakan dunia Gw berhenti ketika Gw kehilangan dia.

Lagi-lagi Gw inget sama lagunya mocca yang Life keeps on turning , Yeah, Losing you is not the end of the world, but it's true, that's DEFINITELY HURT.

Iya sakit, sakit banget.. Saking sakitnya Gw jadi mati rasa. Jujur aja, sekarang ini Gw lagi menutup hati buat siapapun..Kalau boleh Gw pinjem kata-katanya si Dee, sekarang ini Gw lagi mau recovery dulu lah..

Being single and enjoy MY OWN life. Lagian, Gw masih Achie yang percaya sama Tuhan dan segala mujizat yang bisa DIA kerjakan. Pasti Tuhan lagi menyiapkan yang terbaik buat Gw..

Hmm, oke, sekedar sekilas info aja, Gw sama Dee masih bertemen baik sampai detik ini.

Malahan pagi ini kita ngobrol panjang via bbm. Emang gak bisa Gw ceritain disini, tapi mungkin ini juga salah satu alasan Gw bangkit lagi. Ada hal-hal yang tidak bisa dipaksakan di dunia ini.

Gw gak bisa memaksakan punya hubungan special sama Dee, dan Dee juga ga mungkin memaksakan Gw buat ngelupain dia. All i have to do is, protect my heart. Losing my feeling, without forgetting him.

Dan Dee masih tetep jadi penyemangat Gw buat ngeblog. Ngga tau kenapa, tiap Dee bilang "keep posting ya.." atau "lanjutin nulisnya ya.." itu selalu buat Gw balik ke masa-masa obsesi Gw sebagai penulis.

Dan inilah gw sekarang. I'm ready to fly~~~

Stuck on you

Hmm,gw ngetik ini gemeteran. Udah mau nangis, padahal di kantor..

Mungkin ini postingan terakhir tentang si jelek, alias Dee.. Iya, rasanya ini yang terakhir.. 

Gw cuma ngga mau cerita gw sama Dee gantung disini, jadi gw memaksa diri gw sendiri untuk nulis ini.

*Terserah mau dibilang lebay, dramatisasi, gw bener-bener tidak peduli.

Emang udah dari beberapa hari ini gw galau, hubungan kita semakin nggak jelas. Dan gw mau memperjelas, ternyata Dee masih pada prinsip-prinsipnya. Iya gw tau, berarti gw yang salah. Gw yang terlalu banyak berharap, gw yang labil, plin plan, egois, semuanya gw. 

Setelah berdebat sana sini, gw pikir kita masih bisa berteman, masih bisa bbman or whatever we always do.

Yang harus gw lakukan cuma menghilangkan perasaan gw sama Dee..

Tapi menurut Dee, dia harus menghilang dari hidup gw. Dia harus delete contact gw.

THE MOST AND THE WORST THING I'M AFRAID FOR. Iya, hal yang paling gw benci, paling gw takutkan, akan segera terjadi. kehilangan Dee. 

*Oke gw nangis sekarang*

Dee bilang cuma buat sementara, tapi buat gw cara itu semakin menyiksa gw, SUMPAH!

Dia memaksa gw buat menghilangkan perasaan gw ke dia.. Sebenernya ada cara lain buat menghilangkan perasaan gw ke Dee. Buat gw amnesia, that's all.

Sebenernya banyak hal yang belom sempet gw ceritain disini tentang Dee.. Betapa bahagia dan berharganya dia di hidup gw.. Tapi buat apa? Ngga akan pernah buat dia jadi milik gw dan ga akan membuat Dee merubah keputusannya. 

Hmmm, gw jadi inget, mungkin ini  perfect time yang pernah gw ceritain disini.

Oke, gw tau, gw terlalu naif waktu itu. Atau gw yang sekarang yang naif? 

Tapi, menurut gw ini bukan perfect time, dan ini bukan akhir yang dulu kita bicarakan.

Oke, i lost my mind now. I'M DEFINITELY BROKEN NOW.

Gw keilangan mood, hati, pikiran, tubuh, jiwa, raga. Gw keilangan cerita yang bisa gw bagiin di blog. Dan yang pasti gw keilangan Dee.

*Oh GOD, Take me away from this world!* 

Ini postingan terakhir tentang Dee. Karena ngga akan ada cerita lagi tentang Dee.

Dee pergi membawa jiwa gw keluar dari tempatnya. 

Ngga ada lagi MS. GALAU, karena gw akan mematikan kegalauan gw. Seperti Dee mematikan jiwa gw.

Entah, apa gw bisa bangkit dari "kematian" gw atau tidak.

Yang jelas, kalau ini jadi postingan terakhir gw, artinya gw bener-bener belom bisa bangkit.

Artinya gw sudah "mati" bersama kenangan-kenangan gw sama Dee.

Gbye Dreams, the only land fits for me and Dee.

Hariku Bersama Dee ( Part 5 )

Kalo dari urutan ceritanya, harusnya ini jadi postingan terakhir buat si Dee..

*Akhirnya cinta fitri sama tersanjung lega juga, karena belom ada yang nyaingin mereka dalam panjangnya cerita mereka, hahaha.

Bentar *tarik nafas, buang nafas* Kenapa gw jadi sedih ya? 

Apa ini karena part terakhir??? Akan kah ada hari bersama Dee lainnya? di Jakarta mungkin? Atau cuma berakhir disini? Atau mimpi tetep jadi tempat yang tepat buat kita??? dan blog ini saksinya??? Random abis.

Ini pasti gara-gara ujan berkepanjangan #eh *kasian ujan disalahin terus :(

*Tapi ini bener-bener sedih nih perasaannya :( Padahal tadi pagi bahagia banget lho soalnya telpon-telponan sama si Dee.. Ah, aseli super kangen! Udah lama banget nggak telpon-telponan sama si Dee :((

Ngga tau kenapa, tiap denger suaranya si Dee, segala perasaan sedih, galau, pusing, dan segala hal yang negatif ilang gitu aja. Yang ada malah ketawa-ketawa. Ya kalopun bete itu kalo Dee nyebut-nyebut nama mantannya lagi, zzzzzzzzzzz. Oke, skip. <-- Mendadak bete lagi, hahaha.

*Padahal ini kan mau cerita hari terakhir Dee di Bali, kan ya? kenapa jadi ngalor ngidul kemana-mana ya? Haduh.

Hari ke 8, Jumat 6 Januari 2012

Pagi-pagi kita bangun, diawali dengan penuh kegalauan, soalnya si Dee kayanya bahagia banget mau ninggalin gw hari itu, jahaaaaaat abis :((

Dari pagi, dia masa udah dadah-dadah sama Gw. Sambil ngomong, "Nanti jangan nangis ya.. Inget, Don't cry!" Rghhhh, malah pengen nangis kan kalo digituin :((

Kalimat lain dari dia, "Ada yang mau disampein nggak, mumpung masih disini, sebelum too late" 

Astaga Dee! Apakah tangisanku bisa buatmu bahagia? Ataukah tangisku bisa buatmu tetap disini? Apa bakalan ada yang berubah kalo kita omongin? NGGAK KAN?!

Oke, lanjut lagi.

Akhirnya, setelah siap-siap, beresin bajunya Dee, bikinin Dee sarapan, bikinin Dee susu *Hey, tau nggak, selama Dee di Bali, semuanya Gw yang urusin lho. Mulai dari hal yang paling kecil seperti : ngambilin odol, sikat gigi dan segala macem sabun si Dee yang ada di meja di kamar gw buat Dee yang ada di kasur gw yang jaraknya sekitar setengah meter #trims. #CalonIstriYangBaikNih :)) atau #BabuYangBaik *agak saru -_-"

Terus kita berangkat nih ke Sukawati buat beli oleh-oleh *Hore hore* berduaan doang dong sama si Dee naik motor, asli romantis abis. Jadi inget 2/3 tahun lalu, waktu Dee ke Bali terus kita ke Sukawati naik motor juga, mulai dari sampe Sukawati, sampe sepanjang perjalanan pulang si Dee megangin tangan gw dong sambil mengendarai motor. *Hahaha, masih inget aja Gw. Di jamin si Dee pasti lupa. 

Tapi kemaren mah Dee nggak romantis, malesiiin. Yang ada Gw doang yang manja-manjaan sama dia, fuuuh.

Udah tuh, abis keliling-keliling beli tas, dress buat Kak Dwi, sama apalagi ya, lupa. Si Dee masa iseng banget, memberikan harapan sama tukang tattoo di Sukawati, eh bener aja pas kita lewat lagi, itu abang-abang tattoo masih setia nungguin, mampus! Yaudah setelah bernego dan ngumpet-ngumpet juga tuh nattoo *gara-gara 

kita nawar kemurahan, jatoh deh tuh harga pasaran per-tattoo-an, dibawah dari BEP ( Break Even Point ) mereka dan karena takut di kudeta sama temen-temen sejawatnya, si abang tattoo yang Gw rasa lagi BU itu akhirnya ngejar kita diluar peredaran *Astaga, Achie.. Bahasamu nak..tinggi beut >_< 

Itu, foto tattoo nya udah sempet gw upload di postingan sebelum ini, click here 

Lebih jelasnya, nih deh gw kasih lagi *padahal mau pamer nih*

Ini guys, abang2 yang lagi BU. Kapan2 kalo mau tattoo murah meriah, inget2 aja mukanya.
Sayang gw lupa minta nomer telponnya, wkwkwkwkw

Romantis banget sih kita berdua :') Sayang tattoo-nya cuma bertahan 2 minggu.
Tapi perasaan gw ga temporary kaya tattoo ini dong ah.. #eeaa
Saat gw nulis sih tattoo gw masih ada, tp udah saru.

Tebak, harganya berapa? 10.000 dua, muahahahaha. 

Udah tuh, abis dari situ, sempet ke tokonya sodara gw bentar doang, cuma mo ngambil titipannya si Ayu ( kakak gw ). Terus cari makan di genteng biru, tukang bebek langganan. Abis makan, pulang deh kita.

Siap-siap, RE-Packaging lagi bawaannya si Dee terus ke Bandara. Huufff..

Akhirnya, saat yang paling gw benci, perasaan yang paling gw benci, ditinggalin pulang sama si Dee :((

Sedih abis, tapi nggak nangis dong, sesuai janji gw sama Dee *PADAHAL NYAMPE RUMAH, MASUK KAMAR, TERBARING DI KASUR *BEKAS DEE TIDUR* NGELUS2 BANTAL, TERUS NANGIS.

hahaha, asli gw kaya orang bego.

Sebenernya sih sedih bukan karena di tinggal pulang.. Tapi lebih ke perasaan takut semuanya bakalan berubah selepas Dee pergi.. *Dee, ngerti kan maksud aku?

Takut Dee mendadak berniat pergi juga dari hidup gw. Gw juga ga tau deh gimana perasaan si Dee setelah dia sampe di Jakarta. Kalo gw sih, langsung ter flash back semua-muanya deh >_<

Sekarang aja gw masih inget details-detailsnya, super kangen, Dee..

Oke, sebelum banjir air ujan dan banjir karena airmata gw, kita liat poto-poto terakhir yang gw ambil pas perjalanan ke bandara ya :)

my favorite 2. favorit yang pertamanya ngga bisa ke upload :D

Narsis abis yah? Iya secara orang ini jarang-jarang bisa ke Bali. Dan bener-bener nggak tau kapan bisa ketemu lagi. Mungkin nanti keadaannya udah beda *ngebayanginnya aja bikin gw takut >_<

Yang jelas, dapet kesempatan menikmati 8 hari full sama si Dee itu merupakan hal terindah yang pernah gw nikmatin. Sampai kapanpun, pasti bakalan gw inget.

Biar blog ini jadi saksinya. 

Gw emang pernah menghilangkan foto gw sama Dee jaman SMP dulu, tapi tidak untuk kali ini :)

You're a part of my life love story, Dee..

Next post, ada Dee-nya nggak yaaa? HAHAHA, ada dong :) 

Happy waiting for you, Dee* 

*Fans berat saya, sekaligus pembaca setia blog saya dan juga pria kesayangan saya :) 

Cium sampe basah (lagi) ;)

chieliciouz