Thanks God Its March

Time flies so fast, isn't? I still though just last month i wrote love-sad-story with my EX, posting a lot of things about him, but now, I had a new partner of life :') 

All times I've been passed, means a lot for me. God trying to teach me every single day i lived. 

There's so much blessing I got from HIM. All the bitter sweet comes along that time, and bring me to my-grateful-list-which-I-have-to-share-to-you  :

*Thanks God, I still alive till today, its the GREATEST GRACE from my only one Jesus.

*Thanks God, I didn't waste so many times to crying for my EX. 

*Thanks God, You give me the new ( and hope my last ) partner of life named Simon Angga.

*Thanks God, my family knows about my relationship. And I wish my family could accept him and his family too.

*Thanks God, I've been passed 1 month 5 days with my lovely Simon Angga. I also wish GOD will bless our relationship, I just want GOD controlling our relationship, because HE knows what best for us. My pray till today, I could be forever with him. Yeah, i have a lot of wish regarding my relationship ( maybe will share for the next post ). 

*Thanks God, now I live alone ( not with my parents or even my sister/brother ). Well sometimes with my friend office ( Rahma ). All things I have to managed by myself, from washes clothes *Aaa i miss my mommy! since I always complaining everyday while she washing all my clothes :( I have to buy meals since I still not have a stove or any cooking tools x( I even not have Tv guys! How poor I am >.<
But again, it brought me to the decision that my family choose. All those circumstance make me to have a super big big heart. My life even yours never getting easier, trust me! It will getting harder and harder, but sure, it can be BETTER and BETTER if you could pass it. The question is, how come I ( in my case ) pass it all? My answers : KEEP ON GOING in GOD PATH, STOP COMPLAINING and START BE GRATEFUL in EVERY SITUATION AND CONDITION.

Yes, nothing we could do except be grateful in every condition. I know, it wont change the conditions, but it really works to change your mindset, your mood, your heart, yes, it would make you happier, it would make everything LOOKS easier. It helps anyway. 

And last but not least, 

*Thanks God, its MARCH already! Yeay, the month of my birthday. My month!!! 

I will getting older, and (wish) wiser, and (wish) stronger, and (wish) smarter. 

Do I have so much wishes for this month? OF COURSE! So March, please be the nicest month for me :)

xoxo,

Chieliciouz

I'm Stronger Than Yesterday..

My loneliness ain't killing me no more, I'm stronger.

*I don't know why I remember about the song from Britney Spears, stronger, that could expressing my feeling right now. Therefore I choose that photo also, it express my loneliness covered by the sea~

Yay, today is the first day in December 2012. Yes, December, the end of year. My heart beating hardly. A half feeling is so excited with what will happen in this full of miracle month, and another side is feeling do disappointed with my self. 

We'll go for the bad feeling first ya.. To be honest, I'm starting the year of 2012 not seriously. Not just like another passed year, I always be quiet in my room, thinking about what will be my resolution for the new year, this 2012, I passed by watched fireworks in Kuta with the wrong person. 

Curious who? Go back to my post a few months ago. 

See, I started my new year with the wrong man and wrong place >.< 

For me now, it's ok I be called by "the girl next door" or "a homie girl" which-is-spending-the-new-year-eve-by-locking-my self-in-my room, but (trust me) it would be meaningful for us. 

Actually, I still made a few of resolution (which is written in my binder) , But, it just like a streaking of random though, which is I can't remember why I wrote it. *poor me*

And because of that, a lot of my resolution not getting real. Even yeah, I still have the rest of this December to catch up my resolution (Gosh, can I??). A little bit disappointed with my self :"(

But hey, (again) this is the end of the year 2012!!! I've been passing 11 (really hard) months I ever though. Especially the moment of broken heart. Yaaaay, I've been through it all..

All of this year make the feeling of bittersweet, happiness, sadness, and all of the feeling, comes up into my mind.

My biggest thanks to my Jesus, who made my day by day precious. He's the one who make my loneliness ain't killing me no more. Yes, with my Jesus, I'm stronger than yesterday. And ready to face the rest of this month.
My Jesus, keep guiding me through this end of the year :*

xoxo,
@chieliciouz

Happy ever after, Icha!

As my promise long time ago *again, please forgive me to give you a late post. Just because I got a sweet escape three passed day ago #Dancing. Here they are.. This post made specially for my best friend, Icha..

She got her wedding! Her perfect wedding, with her love boy. Aaa, it so make me envy till max *give me a gun, please...* Yes, 19 May 2012, finally Icha held her wedding, after a super long love journey. 

I do felt so happy for both of them, honestly.

And this is the picture, guys *because nothing word i could say anymore. I'd like to burying myself due to jealousy*

This is the invitation. Yes, I made it by my self, specially for them  *love*

Me with Elis

The wedding blessing *or whatever the name is*

Putting the ring each other

Me beside their wedding cake :P

fyi : the boy on the right side of icha is someone i even don't know him.
I just borrow him for a minute, LOL x))))

The girl with blue dress is Revi, my (old) best friend.
Before we're friends with Elis, Revi was me and Icha best friend.

ZOOM IN THE BRIDE AND THE GROOM.

ZOOM IN THE BOY-WHICH-I-BORROW :))))
*Oh well I'm so mean. I know him. He's Icha's brother friend.
We met there and he came alone, so why not? ;D
FYI : I have his bbm contact, but I never chat with him.
Ok, escape.

And, for the extras, I give you a special posting, again. Yay! This is about Icha's birthday on 19 August. I'm a little bit confused about what I should give to her for her birthday present, due to, you-know-what-i-mean she already become a wife. So I decide to give her a simple present, cupcakes! Elisa told me that I ever give her birthday cake, 2 years ago, a brownies made by my self. But now I don't want to make it, I'm too lazy lately *forgive me*
And this is also the reason why I delay my post about her wedding. It's because I wanted to post on the date of her birthday :D So it could be 2 big beautiful moment #MajorLove.

So on independence day, I went to Denpasar accompanied by Elisa to searching birthday cake.

And actually we planned to give her surprise, but on that day, Elisa having Ied Mubarak so the plan was just a failed plan #Pffft

So I went there alone. Just for give her the cake, and this is the picture, enjoy!

Those three girls represent of us.

Cupcake from Cupcake Company

Icha and her hubby

Deeply apologize for those bad background.
There are Icha's temporary house, called  KOST.

Do you really think we're just like twins?
Everybody who knows us, always said we're have similar face, are us?

Happy birthday, Cha.. I always wishing you a bunch of happiness for your little family, a jar of wisdom for you to face this cruel world, a cup of mature and wise for you to be a wife and future-mom, a thousand of people who love you so much ( especially me ) will be beside you, in every precious time. Wishing you live happily ever after, Cha, as our wish. Last but not least, wish you a super great birthday, dear! *A SUPER BIG HUG OF MISSING YOU AND A TENDER OF KISSES WHICH LOVE YOU FROM ME* *I wanna cry now :'(
I wish in the next year, on your birthday, if we still have time together, you already have a baby, and me already have a husband, BIG AMEN :)


And another extras, again! *Drum rolls*

 MY NARCISSIST FACE ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з ε(ˆ​​​​⌣ˆ‎​​​​ʃƪ)з

P.S : I'm really sorry for super bad resolution of all those photos, it's just because that was taken from my blackberry since my digicam sick 1 years ago :__(

xoxo
Chieliciouz

Don't you remember?

Being so in love with the song's from Adele - Don't you remember .. 

Yeah, this song was really remind me with someone out there *which is love Adele too* 

He always sang "someone like you" after he broke up with his gf. And guest what, he's not only gets someone like you *his ex* but he COME BACK with his ex! *Please, let me laugh so loud, HAHAHAHA!*Evil's laugh*

But even i love that songs too, i never agree with what Adele says : "Never mind, i'll find someone like you.." Ugh, it was so galau, you know? How come you could move on if you still finding someone like your ex? I'm a real dreamer. And I'm still the major of "miracle believer" , therefore until now, i still believe that : if you broke up with your BF/GF it means there's nothing to be struggle with. So GOD give you both a space, because HE will give the other one for both of you. Of course the best and even the greatest one. Why we give us tiring way to find someone like your ex-which-is-not-so-worth-for-you? 

But, in this song, Adele still in mellow mood i thought. And the lyric of this song was so ME. 

Yes, this is what i feel today..

When will I see you again?

You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,

No final kiss to seal any seams,

I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?

Or have you completely erased me from your memory?

I often think about where I went wrong,

The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,

And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,

I kept my distance so you would be free,

And hope that you find the missing piece,

To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?

Don't you remember?

The reason you loved me before,

Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

Aaah, yeah, to be honest, in my fickle heart ( galau ) and bitterness ( kebencian ) to him, I still have a feeling of missing him. Everything we'd passed, six month is not a short time. There was still on my mind, completely. But my question is, DON'T YOU REMEMBER??? I won't to ask him the reason he loved me before. I just want to ask him, DID he ever loved me before? then where does it goes? 

But still, I'm standing now, try to walk away.. Not to forget it, but i will always remember him in my deepest heart, bring it all on my way..